I is for Ideals. We have great expectations and when we don't meet them we see ourselves as failures. We never thought to lower our expectations so that our goals were attainable. We didn't have to live in this grandiose world, we could take things one step at a time according to our Higher Power's Will not ours. I don't have to be the great I am.
Sometimes old tapes are hard to recognize, because they are so ingrained into us. What I have learned that in recovery, we can develop them. The new tapes we make in early recovery often need to be revised and/or replaced.
Sometimes, I may get a thought from a week ago that I think should be engraved in stone, only to find that my perception was off.
