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bluidkiti · 08-06-2013, 06:12 AM

June 10, 2013

Quote of the Week

"You know you'll be back, so why
don't you just stay?"

When I had 93 days of sobriety, I went out. I coped a resentment at my Wednesday night meeting because they ran out of ninety day chips, so I stormed out, went home and drank. I still remember the feelings of relief I had as I drank that big glass of port wine - I was off the program and no longer had to descend into the pit of shame the steps were leading me into. Even so, I also knew there was no other way to recover and knew I'd be back.

After several months of drinking and yet still going to meetings, I finally quit for good. Once again, I started working the program all the while dreading the fourth step. When I got to it and starting making a list of resentments and my part in them, I truly felt I had descended into Hell and was sure that once my sins and secrets were revealed, I would be shunned, abandoned or even arrested.

What I found instead was amazing. Where I thought I would be alone, I found that people trudged the road with me, helped me and even understood. Where I thought I would find the darkest parts of myself, I found my connection to my Higher Power. When I thought I'd be abandoned, I found a great fellowship and know now that I don't ever have to be alone again.

Today, I encourage others who want to go out to stay - you know you'll be back anyway.

08-06-2013, 06:12 AM	#23
bluidkiti Administrator Join Date: Aug 2013 Posts: 75,920	June 10, 2013 Quote of the Week "You know you'll be back, so why don't you just stay?" When I had 93 days of sobriety, I went out. I coped a resentment at my Wednesday night meeting because they ran out of ninety day chips, so I stormed out, went home and drank. I still remember the feelings of relief I had as I drank that big glass of port wine - I was off the program and no longer had to descend into the pit of shame the steps were leading me into. Even so, I also knew there was no other way to recover and knew I'd be back. After several months of drinking and yet still going to meetings, I finally quit for good. Once again, I started working the program all the while dreading the fourth step. When I got to it and starting making a list of resentments and my part in them, I truly felt I had descended into Hell and was sure that once my sins and secrets were revealed, I would be shunned, abandoned or even arrested. What I found instead was amazing. Where I thought I would be alone, I found that people trudged the road with me, helped me and even understood. Where I thought I would find the darkest parts of myself, I found my connection to my Higher Power. When I thought I'd be abandoned, I found a great fellowship and know now that I don't ever have to be alone again. Today, I encourage others who want to go out to stay - you know you'll be back anyway. __________________ "No matter what you have done up to this moment, you get 24 brand-new hours to spend every single day." --Brian Tracy AA gives us an opportunity to recreate ourselves, with God's help, one day at a time. --Rufus K. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. --Franklin D. Roosevelt We stay sober and clean together - one day at a time! God says that each of us is worth loving.