J is for Justification. It is not a recovery tool, it is part of our disease. If you have to justify something, it probably means, that deep in your mind, you know you shouldn't have said, thought or acted on it.
Just accept it and move on. You don't have to justify your existence. It is okay to be you. That is why at one time, I used the name Just Jo. I use to say, it is okay, it is just Jo, or I would say, "It is a Jo thing," and would speak about myself in the third person.