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Yesterday in the news, there was an interview with the family of the mayor of a city here in Ontario, who has been charged with many crimes, but the big one was crack, cocaine, and alcohol. His family are worried about his weight. Many don't realize that he uses food like he uses everything else. When I am addicted, my drug of choice is more. It doesn't matter what the substance is, the problem is me.
It doesn't matter if you use too much, or abuse by not taking (food, medication, exercise, etc.), it is all about looking outside of ourselves to make us feel better or succumbing to that stinking thinking that tells you that you are not worthy, that you are ugly, dumb, etc. For many years, I thought I had to justify my existence, it wasn't okay to be me. ![]() MAY YOU BE ABLE TO HANDLE EVERYTHING THAT IS DISHED UP TO YOU!
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This reminded me of a cousin who always use to say "I am big boned" when people on the bus got in her face about being overweight. It sounds good in the telling, doesn't always apply in theory. I was always overweight for the size of my body. When I lost the swelling from medication, I said, "This body was hiding under there all the time." The reality is, that body could lose some weight too! Again, like all addictions, it is a state of mind and needs a change in attitude. It helps to share. When I vocalize, I can hear myself and what is coming out of my mouth and identify the feelings that are often hidden, stuffed, or covered up and need to be acknowledged. ![]()
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A Dieter's Prayer
Lord, my soul is ripped with riot I incited by my wicked diet. "We Are What We Eat," said a wise old man And Lord, if that's true, I'm a garbage can. I want to rise on Judgment Day, that's plain! But at my present weight, I'll need a crane. So, grant me strength that I may not fall Into the clutches of cholesterol. May my flesh with carrot-curls be dated, T hat my soul may be poly unsaturated. And show me the light that I may bear witness T o the President's Council on Physical Fitness. And at margarine, I'll never mutter For the road to Hell is spread with butter. And cream is cursed; and cake is awful; A nd Satan is hiding in every waffle. Mephistopheles lurks in provolone; The Devil is in each slice of baloney. Beelzebub is a chocolate drop, A nd Lucifer is a lollipop. Give me this day my daily slice But, cut it thin and toast it twice. I beg upon my dimpled knees, Deliver me from jujubees. And when my days of trial are done, And my war with malted milk is won, Let me stand with Heavenly throng, In a shining robe, size 30 long. I can do it Lord, If You'll show to me, The virtues of lettuce and celery. If You'll teach me the evil of mayonnaise, Of pasta a la Milannaise, Potatoes a la Lyonnaise, And crisp, fried chicken from the South. Lord, if you love me, shut my mouth! ![]()
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Food has been a big problem for me, more a mental and emotional factor than a physical one. Stuffing, not wanting to eat because of the swelling in my body, looking at my body as fat when in truth it is fluid.
It also was a sign that I wasn't eating healthy, when I eat three times a day, eat good foods, eat balanced meals, I can stay healthy. I seem to have trouble maintaining that balance. I am so grateful for my program that allows me to surrender, turn this part of my addiction over to my HP and know that I will get help and healing. I keep telling myself I am eating well. I look at what I eat and it seems okay, but when I get honest, I have to look at the quantity as well as the quality. For me it is generally less, not more like my other addictions. Yet I know, if I abuse it, I misuse it, I am using food and giving it the power. ![]() I know if I abuse it, I misuse it, I am using food and giving it the power. I am suppose to eat small 5 times a day according to the Diabetic Clinic I went to. My small becomes larger in portion, and sometimes with my weird sleeping patterns, the times are generally less. The making of healthy choice often gets changed in the moment. I get the "I wants" and I know I have reverted to old behaviours. As I have said many times, I become a Wanna Bee and belong on Romper Room. So glad this is a one day at a time program, and extra glad when I get new awareness, often on old situations that keep popping back up. I am grateful for that moment of pause that allows me to make a decision, and I think positive instead of negative. It is so much better to have a buddy, a sponsor, or family that is supportive. ![]()
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When we don't feel like going to a meeting, it may be because our old overeating habit is trying to surface. We are never cured of our disease and we never outgrow our need for the strength, fellowship, and love we receive from OA meetings.
From today's Food for Thought Have an eating disorder, what I call part of my thinking, behind my dis-ease. I never went to OA meetings, but my sponsor had. We had opposite concepts, for her to lose weight was to die because she had been annorexic and for me to gain weight was to die, because my mother used food to deal with my father's disease. My sponsor had also been to Emotions Anonymous and ACoA. Like all addictions, some is good, more is better. When I picked up a substance, be it food, pills, alcohol, men (attention), etc. one was not enough, and when I had more, I couldn't stop, I still wanted more. When I reached a feeling, I couldn't stop there, I always needed more. When I had eaten to stuff a feeling, and the feeling was gone, the substance was still there, I needed more. I was only governed by the amount that was available. At 41 I decided I couldn't afford to keep myself in the style I had become accustomed. I made the decision that men were my problem and swore off them. I tried quitting drinking, and my pill intake increased along with the food and the thinking behind it. Going to meetings was what kept me alive and sober. Without meetings and the people in the group, I would not have stayed clean and sober. I had to quit all substances. It was my thinking not my drinking that was the problem. It wasn't my eating, it was my thinking behind the eating that made my life unmanageable. It is good to talk to someone who has been there and done it. About the only rooms I don't qualify for is Pot and Introvenous drugs. I had pot once and had a big resentment that I lost my alcohol and food. To top it off, we were at a restaurant owned by a friend, and we had just built up a big tab for same, and I lost it. I had to take the body and when I did, the mind followed. I didn't get this way overnight, so I didn't heal overnight. It was those beautiful people my God put in my life to help me along the way. The right person always seemed to arrive at the right time. ![]()
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When I went I tried to take my program with me. I didn't put expectations on others, and allowed them to be themselves. They don't have program, I do and I need to work it.
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When I couldn't have sweets, I started to want and think about them. Don't tell an addict he/she can't have, that old mentality comes back, "Don't tell me 'No' watch me!" The courage to change, something I can't always do myself, and that is why I need a Higher Power and a willingness to change.
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