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RESENTMENT INVENTORY PROMPT SHEET
A partial list of people, institutions and principles that may be helpful in your resentment inventory. PEOPLE INSTITUTIONS PRINCIPLES Father Mother Sisters Brothers Grandfather Grandmother Aunts Uncles Cousins Clergy Police Lawyers Judges Doctors Employers Employees Co-Workers In-Laws Husbands Wives Creditors Childhood Friends School Friends Teachers Life Long Friends Best Friends Acquaintances "Bible-Thumpers" Girl Friends Boy Friends Parole Officers Probation Officers A.A. Friends Friends in the Military Marriage Church Religion Races Law Authority Government Education System Hospitals Health Care System Correctional System Mental Health Sys. Welfare Philosophy Nationality Rehabs Mental Institutions I.R.S. God (or any Deity) Bible Retribution Ten Commandments Satan Death Life after death Heaven he!! Sin Adultery Golden Rule Original Sin Seven Deadly Sins Love, honor, obey Reciprocity Th***y Twelve Steps Twelve Traditions Twelve Concepts "Do unto others..." "Love thy neighbor" "Don't put off until tomorrow..." Old guiding sayings Received in email
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4th step worksheets
https://12step.org/docs/Step4_Inventory.pdf https://12step.org/docs/Step4_WS.pdf http://www.harborhall.com/wp-content...-Worksheet.pdf http://www.upperroomcomm.com/bbsguide/ "If You Want What We Have" Sponsorship Meditations by Joan Larkin ----105---- The readiness is all. William Shakespeare Newcomer I went to two different Step meetings this week, in different parts of town, and both of them were on the Fourth Step. I keep hearing that "there are no coincidences." Does this mean I'm supposed to start the Fourth Step now? How do I know if I'm ready? Sponsor First of all, I'm glad to hear that you're going to Step meetings, and I encourage you to keep it up. Your willingness has brought you a long way already, and it continues to be the key. In approaching a new Step, I find it useful to ask myself if I've taken the Steps that precede it in a complete, wholehearted way. I review Step One and remember why I'm on this path of recovery in the first place: addiction brought me to spiritual depths I don't want to sink to again. Reviewing Step Two reminds me that I'm not alone, and that I have faith that I'll be given what I need to become a whole and free person again. Step Three reminds me that I've made a decision. I'm willing to do what's necessary for recovery and to trust the process. I remember that I only have to do my part; my progress in recovery isn't entirely up to me. My Higher Power will do the rest. When I reach Step Four, I trust that in the process of writing about the events of my addictive life, I'll be taken care of. Today, I bring willingness and an open mind to the next step in my recovery. I relax and trust that I am not alone.
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"If You Want What We Have"
Sponsorship Meditations by Joan Larkin ----106---- Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. Soren Kierkegaard Newcomers When I look at the Step Four, the phrase "the exact nature of our wrongs" sounds so grim and old-fashioned. I don't know if I can face my past that way. Sponsor We have a phrase---"the arrogant worm"---to express the way some of us think of ourselves: one moment we're too important to take the Steps; another moment we're the worst things that ever walked the face of the earth. Both are distortions. I'm a human being living among other human beings. I'm not a saint, but I'm not a worm, either. Words I've said or failed to say, and actions I've taken or not taken have had an impact both on other people and on myself. Chances are that the behavior I'd most like to forget is the behavior most important to include in my inventory. The point of this Step isn't just to list our faults, not is it to beat ourselves up for them. Nor is it to complain about the ways we've been victimized by people or circumstances. It is to look where our addictions have taken us. In recovery, I cherish my innate sense of right and wrong. Today, it leads me to take actions for which I esteem myself.
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"If You Want What We Have"
Sponsorship Meditations by Joan Larkin ----108---- Would you take a stick and punish your hand because it lacked understanding? --Rabbi Shmelke of Nikolsburg Newcomer What is a "moral Inventory," exactly? Sponsor There are many approaches to Step Four in program literature and in publications about recovery; at Step meetings you'll hear people describe still other methods suggested by their sponsors. All these methods involve writing---one of the most powerful tools we have in recovery. Taking our moral inventory helps us to get to know ourselves better by looking honestly at our behavior and its impact on ourselves and others. One simple, effective approach, as suggested in A.A.'s Big Book, focuses on two key emotions: fear and resentment. We make as complete as possible a list of people and institutions we have feared and resented. We identify what it is in us that feels threatened by each individual on our list. The result is a portrait---not of others, but of ourselves and the feelings that have fueled our addictive lives. Another approach is to list our assets and deficits, as we might do for a business. A balanced picture includes pluses as well as minuses, so for those of us who are experts at self-dislike, it's important to note not only our past mistakes, but also the progress we've made. How are we evolving into more honest, caring, responsible people? What are we doing better? What are our positive qualities, and how do they contribute to a strong recovery? Today, I think about writing a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself. In the spirit of honesty, I will record assets as well as deficits.
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From NA - 4th & 5th Steps
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Step Four is a Step that people hesitate to do and look on it with fear. I had to change that fear into an act of faith. I was told that I had to take an inventory of what was there so I would know what I needed to change. My sponsor said that I had to change everything, yet I didn't know what that everything was. I didn't know that meant an inventory of the postive as well as the negative. It wasn't a punishing step, it was one of affirmation and validation. I was not a bad person, I was a sick person who needed to get well, it didn't say I had to get good. Without doing Steps 4 & 5, I would be a dry drunk. I couldn't truly go onto the following Steps without them. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. Step Five was an enlightening Step, as well as a Step which lightened the burdens I had carried for years. I knew God knew all things, and that is why I walked in fear. I knew I didn't have to tell Him, He knew, and I didn't realize that it was necessary to share with him to begin the process of the five As of change: Awareness, admittance, acceptance, action which brought about a change in attitude which allowed for spiritual growth. By sharing with another, it meant that I could obtain self-honesty. I couldn't look at my life through rose-coloured glasses, with tunnel vision, and it brought about an awareness of two things. I wasn't as bad as I thought I was, but I sure had a lot of work to be done! Ntoice that it says the nature of my disease it didn't say to list each and every one I made. i.e. thief, adultress, bad wife, mother, friend, etc. Just for today, God and I are still working on them.
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I like to compare myself to a battery. A battery has two terminals. A positive terminal and a negative terminal. If a battery has to many negative cells it has not live in it and is useless. If a battery has to many positives charges it will explode and you have nothing. But if a battery has the right amount of positives and negatives you can start up a D-9 Catapiller and go push a mountain around. That is the way I am. To many negatives I am useless. To many positives I am not worth nothing either.
- Anonymous I like the battery premise, it reminds me that when I surrender to my Higher Power, I am empowered to do what I need to do for myself. When I was in treatment, we had to do "daily affirmations", each morning we had to say something positive about ourselves! It was difficult for all of us. We all came from different walks of life, but after years of poor self-esteem, self-worth and abuse, there wasn't much thought of the positive. It was a good way to start my recovery. One of the greatest gifts in early recovery was to be told by a native woman that "God doesn't make no junk!" What comes to mind is the song, "Eliminate the negative, excentuate (?) the positive, and go with Mr. In-Between. Again, like all things, it is about balance. One of the scariest things I hear is that people haven't done this step or that, because they haven't done any other than Step One. I had a man ask me once if I worked the Twelve Steps in my recovery and I said, "Yes, some days all Twelve!" In the Big Book on page 76 is says: Quote: Suppose we fall short of the chosen ideal and stumble? Does this mean we are going to get drunk? Some people tell us so. But this is only a half-truth. It depends on us and on our motives. If we are sorry for what we have done, and have the honest desire to let God take us to better things, we believe we will be forgiven and will have learned our lesson. If we are not sorry, and our conduct continues to harm others, we are quite sure to drink. We are not theorizing. These are facts out of our experience. ... We have listed and analyzed our resentments. We have begun to comprehend their futility and their fatality. We have commenced to see their terrible destructiveness. We have begun to learn tolerance, patience and good will toward all men, even our enemies, for we look on them as sick people. We have listed the people we have hurt by our conduct, and are willing to straighten out the past if we can. In this book you read again and again that faith did for us what we could not do for ourselves. We hope you are convinced now that God can remove whatever self-will has blocked you off from Him. If you have already made a decision, and an inventory of your grosser handicaps, you have made a good beginning. That being so you have swallowed and digested some big chunks of truth about yourself. This sound like me getting honest with me. God can, I can't, and just for today, I choose to let Him. __________________
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The Blueprint to Progress is an excellent Step Four format and I had a lady here, who has been in AA for 20+ years confirm this.
When I share, I always tell people that they need to do a Step Four to get rid of the darkness so the light of reason can shine. This means taking an inventory of good and bad, what I need to change, what needs adjusting, what needs improvement, and what needs totally discarded. I looked at it as if I was doing an inventory of a warehouse. I am a sick person trying to get well, not a bad person trying to get better. I was told to start with a resentment sheet because the whole picture could be very overwhelming. I was also told that for every negative I HAD TO FIND A POSITIVE!!! In the Big Book it talks about the anger, resentment, guilt and fear because they are the big offenders which often takes people back out if not addressed. A lot of people "stay sick" because they aren't willing to look at themselves. That is why we used in the first place, we could not look and be with ourselves. We have a dis-ease! More than a drinking and drugging problem, I have a thinking problem. I haven't used for twelve years, but I still need to live in today. I did a Step Four every eighteen months to two years up until I was six years sober, then I did a verbal one with a therapist from then until now; in fact, that reminds me I need to call her and resume our meetings which we dropped over the holiday season. I have had new "defects" develop that I didn't know had in early recovery. I had new spiritual awakenings and new awareness as a result of working the step, from the time I did the original ones, and I needed to address the issues which I had buried and hadn't been able to look at previously. For me this is a one day at a time program, that means I work the steps, one day at a time. Some people say ten, eleven and twelve are maintenance steps, and they are, but I had to do a Step Ten in early recovery in order to live long enough to find the courage and lose the fear to do a Fourth Step. The honesty didn't come until later. I had to make a conscious contact with the God of my understanding, in order to work the steps, and that consciousness grew. I had to go to meetings, which for me is Step Twelve work, sharing my experience, strength and hope. I didn't wait until I worked all the steps to work these maintenance steps. As far as ego goes, I got up to speak at my home group one night and said, "I just found out I have an ego, I thought it was a male thing!" You should have seen the look on the faces in the audience. AA does have it's own Fourth Step Guide. One that I saw, which was quite lengthy and very detailed in dealing with emotions was from Adult Children of Alcoholics. When we come into recovery, most of what we feel is the negative ones and don't know what the good ones are. When we stuff the anger and the hurt, we don't have the luxury of keeping the love and kindness, everything disappears and we become spiritually, emotionally, and mentally bancrupt and well as the physical malady of this disease. I remember when I was going through a recovery house and this girl would say to me, "But how do you feeeellllllll????" I always wanted to hit her, lash out because I didn't know. I use to respond with, "I don't know, if I did, I wouldn't be asking!" What I heard most in AA was follow the questions as they are asked in the Big Book in How It Works in chapter five. I also heard a priest who has 50 years in recovery say, this is a today program, the inventory is about today. Things from your past which you are still carrying in today and need to let go of the excess baggage in order to grow and move on in your recovery. Quote: Sometimes when a post is long, I put it in large print. I realize it is also because I am old and read better when things are in large print. I know how to enlarge the print or make it smaller by pressing Ctrl + or -, but then I forget! I know that if I get a long page of small print, I seldom read it. It has to catch my attention in the first paragraph or I am out of there. Now that is an example of a 4th and 5th Step. Luv...Jo
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It wasn't until I was willing to bring everything from my past out of the darkness into the light and truly look at them honestly, that I was able to heal and move forward. I went on to do two more written Step Fours and verbal Steps every eighteen - twenty-four months in Counselling. I always thought that honesty was what I got first and that I was always honest, yet self-honest, true self-honesty was one of the most difficult things for me. I didn't want to face me. It was like I wanted to continue to be the martyr and the victim. By doing so, I wouldn't have to look at the people in my life and look at my decisions concerning them. It wasn't about other people, it was about me and I could no longer play the blame game. This was a very freeing Step, especially when I followed it by a Fifth Step and released the burdens that I had been carrying for so long. Originally posted my site Star Choices
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The signs were there, but I ignored them. The direction was there, yet I was the one who exercised her freedom of choice. Then my addiction made the choices for me, yet I was the one who continued to use people, places and things. Always looking for love in all the wrong places, always looking for the next fix, the next potion that would make me feel better and escape my reality. Always outside of myself, not knowing it was an inside job.
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How can I know what to change if I don't take an inventory to see what needs changing. What doesn't stand me in good stead in today. Over the years, I have developed new patterns and behaviors and they too have had to go. Just because something is comfortable doesn't mean it is for my higher good. Defects and characteristics can block my way from the growth I search for in recovery. All I am asked to do is be the best me I can be today. I can not move on in my recovery without self-honesty. The blanket of denial keeps me in the past. My inventory took me out of my past so I could move forward in today. Quote:
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