My take on things

[YanKeeGal]

I find that when i get overwhelmed, anxious full of anxiety, i have to take some time out from people. I also have PTSD and they trigger me bad. I say to the Lord, "I am dumb as a box of rocks without You. Please help me out here cause i can't do this without you. Amen". And i find afterwards a calm, a peace and then an answer comes to me or a new direction i did not think about. I use to go around and say, "It's my job to live life, it's God's job to watch over the foolish." Well He sure did with this one! Originally i came first in 1984 into the program. Then later around 1990.

I stopped going to meetings because it seems that atheists ran the show and stripped all spirituality out of the meetings so i got disgusted and stopped going. Most of my friends in there died and eventually i went back out. I didn't get sloppy drunk or drunk all the time. I mostly drank because of all the physical pain i was in. But i stopped again and have a new date. Drinking is not a problem for me anymore, but anxiety and not have peace is. So here i am hoping to blend the AA with the bible. Glad i found you on fb.

[MajestyJo]

Welcome to the group Yankee Gal. Thank you for your shares. I was raised in the church and that didn't stop me from becoming an alcoholic. My first taste of alcohol was when I stole a glass of communion wine when I was 10 years old. I remembered the feeling I had when it hit bottom, and I searched for that feeling all of my life. It ended up that I kept needing more to find the feeling and then when I found it, I couldn't stop there. I had to have more. That is why I say my drug of choice is more. It didn't matter what the substance was. I am an addict. One is too many, a thousand isn't enough.

I never lost my belief. I just thought that God no longer believed in me. The old tapes were playing, and I discounted my life. It was coming to the rooms of recovery that I found spirituality. I didn't find a lot of that in church, at least not that I was aware of until I made the decision to join a church in recovery. They had greeters at the door and they had a gathering after the morning service. They also had a dinner to invite newcomers to meet and greet members.

I can go to church and identify with the people there, few in the church can identify with where I have been and with who I am. It was the spirituality in the rooms that kept me coming back. One God who covered ALL religions. It didn't matter if you didn't believe in God, you could still get sober. I co-sponsored an atheist and the last time I heard of him, he was doing Bible study. He belonged to S.O.S. as well as NA.

The program works when I work for the program.

[YanKeeGal]

this is a tremdous group of people. ty