Part Two of Step One

[MajestyJo]

My life is unmanageable when managed by me. Yet often, when life happens and I get caught up in 'stuff' and I don't realize what is going on, until I am in it, and need to get myself out of it.

When I do the do things, pick up my phone, go on the internet, read my books, do a meditation and talk to my God, things come into their true perspective.

There is a great quote in Courage to Change from Al-Anon which gave me the thought for discussion.

If problems arise today, I will try to acknowledge them - and then put a little spiritual space between my problems and myself. If I can share them with another person, I will further diminish their power. Recognizing that my life is unmanageable is the first step toward managing it.

"...when we bring things out into the light, they lose their power over us."

...In All Our Affairs.

Posted in 2010 on another site

My life is unmanageable when I put my life on hold waiting for someone else to make a decision.

My life is unmanageable when I don't practice putting more balance in my life. When everything is all computer, it isn't healthy. Even though I balance my time between several sites, I don't think that counts.

My life is unmanageable when I allow my pain to rule my life. When I give up doing and just let my pain dictate my actions, my life is unmanageable.

My life is unmangeable when I do everything at once and don't balance my day. Like this week, I was in for three days because of the weather and then I had to play catch up. It would have been much more manageable to do things Wednesday and Thursday.

My life is unmanageable when I don't accept what is in the moment, no matter 'what ' is. I don't have to like it, but I do need to accept it before I can move beyond it.

My lfie is unmanageable when I don't write things down and write reminders and then forget where I put the reminder or forget the list. Fibromyalgia has a way of doing that to me. I think I have paid, but have only thought of doing and I didn't follow up the thought with action.

I get the thought to take something out for supper. If I don't act on it, it is gone and when dinner time comes, nothing is thawed.

It isn't a whole lot unmanageable like it was prior to recovery. I no longer have to rob Peter to pay Paul because I drank the money. I don't have to make partial payments because I spent the money on others things.

My life is unmanageable when managed by me. If my God leads me to it, He will see me through it. Doesn't look manageable and doable sometimes, but it is amazing how things turn out sometimes.

[MajestyJo]

My life is unmanageable, when I find myself robbing Peter to pay Paul. Those partial payments, living beyond our means. Getting money that is already spent. My disease tells me I am just F.I.N.E. (frustrated, insecure, neurotic, and emotional/enjoying it), when in truth, I may not have picked up a drink, I may have detached from my A, and when I take an honest look at myself, I find I am using things like food, work, service, gambling and other things. All substance lead to the same soul sickness.

[MajestyJo]

My life is unmanageable, when I find myself robbing Peter to pay Paul. Those partial payments, living beyond our means. Getting money that is already spent. My disease tells me I am just F.I.N.E. (frustrated, insecure, neurotic, and emotional/enjoying it), when in truth, I may not have picked up a drink, I may have detached from my A, and when I take an honest look at myself, I find I am using things like food, work, service, gambling and other things, to take me out of myself. I don't want to look at me, so best I focus on you. All substance lead to the same soul sickness.

Not staying in today, but projecting into tomorrow (which never comes) and/or looking over our shoulder, and instead of detaching, wallowing in it, and carry the extra burden instead of letting go and letting God.