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[MajestyJo]

Realized how ingrained in fear I was, it took me too the thought of "Losing my feet" today.

The pain has been really bad, having difficulty sitting at the computer, let alone thinking of words, and if I was lucky, the thought made it to my finger tips.

I always have pain, over the years, God and I have worked on it. I am a big faith healer and know that but for the Grace of God, I would not be alive today. He has put so many good people in my path, even some not so good, who show me that I don't want to go there.

So much of my pain has been focused on my arthritis and the neuropathy in my feet, only to find out that I have breathing and throat issues. I think there might me a stomach issue too, but then I tell myself, what is one more label, we will get through this.

You will see that faith has been a big part of the readings today. I have faith, yet in today, it had to be reinforced.

It was also being aware, people have been put in my path, and yet some won't appear until August, so it is me waiting on God's Time, not looking for that quick fix. Just saying, "Go away, doesn't always cut it."

I also have to realize, that I am where I am at in today as a result of decisions made. Not just prior to recovery, but in recovery, even last night when I ate my son's brownies. I asked for them, and he ENABLED me, by giving them to me.