Sharing and Caring

[MajestyJo]

Working on a resentment at the moment. Got back from my friend's 32 AA anniversary and feeling good. I am sitting here trying to post and the music from Hess Village with is about block from me, seems to be getting noisier and noisier. It is just after midnight and the music and noise will only continue to get louder from now until about 4 a.m.

Tonight it feels like an intrusion. Sometimes it is annoying and it is EVERY night, but the music just doesn't seem to fit the good space I am in. The words that came to mind was "Get over it!" It makes me laugh, just like I could "get over my disease," yea right! I couldn't do it on my own, which means I have to do some prayer and meditation and then when I want to go to bed, I will have to put in the ear plugs.

Weekends are worse of course because there are more people and they don't have to go to work tomorrow for the most part. I certain wasn't considerate of others when I was using. Pay back is a b*tch! Tonight I feel like I have paid my dues, but then when I think about it, I used for 39 years, and I am coming up on 24 years of sobriety on Friday of next week, so it looks like I still have some indirect amends to make, so I will let these people enjoy themselves, wish them health, luck, and prosperity and be grateful that I am not them and I won't wake up tomorrow with a hangover.

I do have a choice, I could wake up with a hangover too if I choose not to deal with my feelings. I would wake up with an emotional hangover.

God grant me the Serenity
To Accept the things I cannot Change
The Courage to Change the things I can
And the Wisdom to know the Difference.
Amen.