A Visit

[MajestyJo]

This reminds me of the night I did a meditation when I was just over 7 years sober. I laid back in my easy boy chair afterward and I felt like the Hand of God touched me from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. Due to abuse, my body was very rigid with fear and many other hurts and feelings that I had yet to deal with. I didn't go to sexual counselling until I was 15 years sober. I thought I had dealt with everything in my 4th Step, but I needed additional healing. The body remembers and when I got up from that chair, I felt like I had my zig to go with my zag and I was free of all the old body memories that had kept me in check and stopped me from going forward in a lot of areas of my life. Shortly afterward, I ended the relationship I was in. I realized that he saw me as his Higher Power and was looking to me to fill all his needs. God fills our needs, we don't have to go outside of ourselves to be fulfilled.