Where Did I Go?

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Where Did I Go?

Psalm 139:17 and 23-24: “How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life” (TLB).

I became so wrapped up in the daily routine of “cranking out” work that I lost me. I didn’t know me, anymore. The person I thought I knew was buried under layers of smoldering ashes. The “together” image I saw in the mirror encased an emotionally dying woman.

It sounds over-dramatic, but it’s true. The question that haunted me was, “Can I be found?” I didn’t know when or if I’d ever come back. Yet, step by step, little by little, God picked up the burned out fragments, repaired them and pieced them back together.

God knew where I was all the time. He never stopped thinking about me. And when the time was right, he re-introduced me to myself. And then when I could handle it, he showed me how to change my self-destructive lifestyle so I wouldn’t get lost again. How great his love!

Father, you know me inside and out.
Please share your thoughts with me.
And help me to be the person I’m capable of becoming.

Joan C. Webb