Who's Laughing
I have become one of those people I use to laugh about and make fun of while I was drinking. I use to do this because of my own festering insecurities and wanting to fit in, and also because of my lack of understanding of those people. This was my miserable attempt to sooth over that. I never really liked doing this all that much, but for some reason I did it a lot, it seemed like every time I got the chance. In recovery I started to meet some of those people and found they had something I wanted for myself. I wasn't quite sure exactly what it was about them, but knew I knew I didn't have it myself. They had this sort of confidence that everything was happening exactly as it should be, and they were okay with who they are. Now together we laugh at those who laugh at us because of we also did the same thing.
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