Addicted to cocaine

[MajestyJo]

They have to want to recover or the program won't work for them. They need to get honest, have an open mind to change and the issue of addiction itself. I often have to pray for the willingness to be willing.

My son is in active addiction. He has stopped for short periods of time, but he has no desire to quit. He stops cocaine and crack, but continues to use other things, which have taken him back many times. It is a one day at a time program. Just for today, I choose not to use. Substitution doesn't work. I wanted to quit my drinking and ended up substituting with pills and food. In the end, I was one of the really sick ones and was lucky to be alive to walk through the doors of AA. I went to AA for my denial. I went to NA for identification, I always knew I was a drug addict, my drug of choice was always more. I go to Al-Anon because of my son's addiction and they also helped me to find myself. My parents were addicts too. My father died as a result of his alcoholism. My mother died at the age of 40 because she used food to deal with life's issues, plus she was a fantastic cook. She would make a double layer chocolate cake and the 5 of us ate it for dinner. She made it from scratch, if she made it from a box, it wouldn't turn out. Got to love the real thing. I had to change my thinking to healthy thoughts.

Prayers for you and him. All I can do is love my son and in Al-Anon, I learned to set boundaries and detach by letting go and letting my God. I had to realize that I was not HIS God and He had to find his own Higher Power, so all I could do was pray.