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[tifpnn]

Hello...

I am new to this board. I have tried to stop drinking several times over the last two decades, unsuccessfully. As a mother and wife, I knew that my drinking was inappropriate, so I began to hide it. My husband pretended not to know. Alcohol is repugnant to me, as it has caused me so much pain. I grew up in an alcoholic family. All of my siblings are alcoholics. I just recently lost my brother in a motorcycle accident, because he was under the influence. I don't enjoy drinking. I know it is an addiction. I have been sober for 10 days. And, I never want to drink again. I have done this before and I need to remain here, sober. I feel good and happy right now. I don't feel like a liar and I feel strong. I have never reached out for help before. All advice appreciated. I will make it this time!