12 x 12 Dictionary

[bluidkiti]

ABC Words
A.A. beam - 85 - see beam
abandon - ( uh ban dun ) - 7, 69 - leave / leave behind / let go of
abandoned - ( uh ban dun’d ) - 10, 93, 141
- left behind / given up / dropped / rejected
abashed - ( uh bash’d ) - 54 - surprised / embarrassed / confused /
made to feel mentally uncomfortable
abetted - ( uh bet id ) - 33 - helped / supported / aided /
helped or approved in wrong thinking or doing
abhor - ( ab hore or ub hore ) - 64
- hate / despise / have no use for / withdraw from in disgust / detest
abiding - ( uh bye ding ) - 131
- lasting / steady / continuing / enduring / continuing without change
abilities - ( uh bil uh teez ) - 51, 181 - powers / skills / capacities /
capabilities / strengths / natural or gained powers
ability - ( uh bil uh tee ) - 10,48,52,91,102,111,114,124,150,158,174
- power / capacity / capability / strength / natural or gained power to act
abnormally - ( ab nor muh lee / ab norm ull ee ) - 123
- unusually / oddly / differently from an accepted standard or type
abolition - ( ab uh lish un ) - 178
- ending / formally put an end to a practice, institution, or condition
abound - ( uh bound ) - 48
- have many of / have plenty of / exist in large amounts or numbers
abroad - ( uh broad ) - 165
- away / in other places / elsewhere / over a wide area / in other countries
absolve - ( ab zalv / ub zalv ) - 50
- free / pardon / set free from obligation, responsibility, or blame
abstractions - ( ab strak shuns ) - 29 - ideas / th***ies / imaginings /
creations from unrealistic or impractical thinking
absurdly - ( ab -or- ub sird lee / ab -or- ub zird lee ) - 122
- insanely / unreasonably / foolishly / contrary to reason or common sense
abundance - ( uh bun dunts ) - 65, 71, 98 - excessive amount /
great supply / a greater amount than needed or required
accept -( ak sept / ek sept )- 8, 31, 41, 52, 59, 68, 88, 112, 119,
122, 125, 166, 169
- to agree with / to take something ( given or offered ) willingly
- to know and be tolerant or sympathetic toward
- ( put up with ) endure or submit to
- to regard as acceptable (tolerate, approve, sanction) / to take upon oneself
- to recognize or regard ( often reluctantly ) as being valid or true
accepted - ( ak sep tid / ek sep tid ) - 21, 111, 122, 124
- ( past tense of accept - see accept ) / believed to be true, valid, or proper
acceptance - ( ak sep tunse / ek sep tunse ) - 34, 190
- agreement / approval / favorable reception (34) / taking or receiving (190)
accomplishments - ( uh kom plish munts ) - 117
- achievements / actions / deeds / attainments
accordingly - ( uh kor ding lee ) - 94
- so / in a similar way / for this reason / consequently
accountable - ( uh count uh bull / uh koun tuh bull ) - 134, 175
- answerable / responsible / subject to giving an account
accumulating - ( uh koom yuh lay ting ) - 120
- gathering / saving / gradually increasing in quantity or number / amassing
accurate - ( ak yur it ) - 61, 77, 79, 89
- correct / right / verifiable / without error / true or exact representation of fact
achieve - ( uh cheeve ) - 64, 91, 111, 190 achieved - 35, 58
- reach / accomplish / realize / to gain with effort / to carry out with success
achievement - ( uh cheeve munt ) - 37, 71, 100 achievements - 70, 112
- something completed, especially by means of work, skill, or practice
acid test - ( ass id test ) - 37, 88 - a test that decides the worth or quality of something ( from acid testing of or for gold )
acme - ( ak me ) - 149
- peak / highest measure / highest point or state / greatest degree or measure
acquaintance - ( uh kway tunce ) - 70, 162
- a person whom one knows but not necessarily a close friend ( 70 )
- experience / personal knowledge, experience, or information about ( 162 )
acquainted -( uh kwain tid )- 119 - known and experienced with one another
acquire - ( uh kwire ) - 27 acquires ( uh kwirez ) - 40
- have / get / gain ( 27 ) / has / gets / gains ( 40 )
acquired - ( uh kwire’d ) - 38, 58, 89
- gained / developed / learned / adopted / come to have as a trait or ability
acquisition - ( ak wuh zish un ) - 121
- gain / attainment / something gathered, acquired, or added
activator - ( ak tuh vay tur ) - 7, 76 - stimulant / energizer / something that
makes something else active or more so
actuality - ( ak choo al uh tee ) ( ak sha wile uh tee ) - 94
( in actuality - in actual fact ) - fact / truth / reality / being actual
acute - ( uh cute / uh kyoot ) - 39, 53, 117 - intense / sharp / extreme /
of great importance / sensitive / intensely painful
acutely - ( uh cute lee / uh kyoot lee ) - 50 - deeply / intensely /
desperately / being critical, near a breaking point or crisis
ad infinitum - ( ad in fuh nite um / ad in fa nye tum ) - 47
- endlessly / without end or limit / to infinity / having no end
adapted - ( ad ap tid ) - 118
- made to fit / adjusted / changed in structure, character, or substance
administered - ( ad min us terd / ad min eh stirred ) - 64, 172
- given / applied / provided / run / managed / supervised
admission -( ad mish un )- 5,6,7,9,23,25,39,55,56,68,73,75,78,84,89,
93,143 s - 21, 59 - voluntary confession or acknowledgement of a truth /
the act or process of admitting / agreement that a fact or statement is true / allowing to enter / allowed to enter / a fee paid or required to access or enter
admission price - 7 ( price of admission - 75 )
- a charge or fee required or paid to gain access or enter / see - admission
admitted - ( ad mit id ) - 5, 6, 8, 21, 38, 55, 59, 73, 76, 78, 88, 107
- confirmed / declared / acknowledged / accepted
- realized or regarded ( often reluctantly ) as being valid or true
- allowed to enter / let in / taken in / shown in
adoption - (uh dop shun ) - 24
- acceptance following / embracing / choosing or taking on as one’s own
adversity - ( ad ver suh tee ) - 70
- hard times / difficult times / unfortunate, and usually unexpected, events
advocate - ( ad vuh cut ) - 24, 56
- supporter / promoter / to speak or argue in favor of something or someone
affairs - ( uh fair’z ) - 8,9,10,52,94,105,106,109,111,114,146,154,161,189
- happenings / activities / topics / concerns / things to be dealt with personally
- relationships / romantic involvements / social gatherings / business matters
affected - ( uh fek tid ) - 79, 81, 84, 85, 86, 116, 118
- to have had one’s thinking and/or emotions changed or influenced / impact
- influenced / impressed / to have brought about a response
- infected or attacked, as by an illness or disease
affecting -( uh fek ting )-10,146 - influencing / causing change to / relating to
affection -( uh fek shun)- 39,124 - love / respect / admiration / warm feelings
affiliate - ( uh fil ee ate ) - 10, 147 - associate / partner / join / unite / ally
affiliation - ( uh fil ee ay shun ) -147,189,190
- connection / association / partnership / alliance / attachment
- relationship with a group or cause / interdependence
affirmative - ( uh firm uh tiv ) - 63 - yes / positive 34 - assertive / aggressive
afford - ( uh ford ) - 18, 102, 186 - provide to / offer / make available to / allow
- dare / risk / bear / do without risk or disadvantage ( 186 )
affords - ( uh fords ) - 176 - offers / provides / makes available to
agencies - ( uh jen sees ) - 169, 190 - organizations / businesses / services
agenda - ( uh jen duh ) - 163
- routine / program / order of business / list of things to be done or considered
age-old - ( age old ) - 15, 117 - very old / persistent / long standing / enduring
aggravate -( ag ruh vate )- 55 - worsen / to make more troublesome or worse
aggravated - ( ag ruh vay tid ) - 78, 118 - worsened / increased / provoked
aggrieved -( uh greev’d )- 185 - injured / offended / wronged / treated unjustly
agitated -( aj uh tay tid )- 157 - stirred up interest / caused to move / troubled
agnostic -( ag nos tik )- 28, 33, 62, 107 agnostics - 96 - one who believes that the existence of God cannot be proved or disproved / The word Thomas H. Huxley, a 19th Century British scientist, created to describe his own view of the existence of God. ( ‘A or Ag’ - without ‘gnosis’ - higher knowledge )
agonized - ( ag uh nized ) - 66 - troubled / tormented / caused to suffer
aimlessly - ( aim less lee ) - 129 - without purpose / without direction
akin - ( uh kin ) - 178 - similar / comparable / along the same lines as
alas - ( uh lass ) - 148
- unfortunately / an expression of regret, unhappiness, pity, or concern
alcohol - 5, 21, 22, 25, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 34, 35, 36, 39, 40, 45, 57,
63, 64, 68, 73, 76, 107, 124, 152, 157, 167, 169, 170, 192 - ethanol, especially when considered as the intoxicating agent in fermented and
distilled liquors / a drink ( as whiskey or beer ) containing ethanol /
( ethanol is a colorless flammable liquid, obtained from the fermentation of sugars and starches, which is also used in some drugs, cleaning solutions, fuels, and explosives. Ethanol is also called ethyl alcohol and grain alcohol.
alcohol reform - 192 - see reform - social, political, or legal efforts to
affect laws as they may relate to the use or manufacture of alcoholic drinks
alcoholic/s - ( al kuh hall ik/s ) - 94 entries including covers
- containing alcohol ( as a drink ) / person/s affected with alcoholism
alcoholism - ( al kuh hall iz um ) - 15, 16, 17, 23, 24, 33, 39, 54, 63, 64,
73, 80, 116, 117, 142, 152, 155, 156, 158, 166, 169, 177, 178, 180, 189
- continued excessive, compulsive, and/or obsessive use of alcoholic drinks
- poisoning by alcohol / mental-physical dependence on, and compulsive use of, alcoholic drinks / a complex chronic psychological and nutritional disorder associated with excessive and usually compulsive drinking / see compulsion
( also see - in ‘Alcoholics Anonymous’ Big Book - Pages - 23,30,31, 44 ( top )
alibis - ( al uh bize / al uh buys ) - 47
- excuses / explanations to avoid blame, punishment, or to justify actions
alike - ( uh like ) - 17, 48, 64, 89, 173 - the same ( 48, 89 )
- in the same or similar manner or degree / in like manner ( 17, 64,173 )
allayed -( uh lay’d )- 148 - eased / calmed / decreased / made less severe
allergy - ( al er jee ) - 5, 22
- unusual reaction or sensitivity / abnormal sensitivity to certain substances
- exaggerated or disease-like reaction to substances or physical states
that are without comparable effect on the average individual
all-pervading - ( all per vaid ing ) - 187
- extremely common / universal / present throughout
alternated -( al tur nay tid )- 84 - changed / switched / swung back and forth
alternately - ( al tur nit lee / al turn it lee ) - 118
- in turns / pass back and forth between / one after the other / in succession
altitude - ( al tuh tood ) - 187 - level / position of importance or prominence
ambition -( am bish un )- 12,51,66,122,123,124,183 s -(shunz)-49,130,150
- aim, goal, plan, intent, design, purpose, meaning, or desire
- desire or intention to do or succeed at something
ambitious - ( am bish us ) - 29, 122, 183
- eager / motivated to achieve something / enthusiastic / full of ambition
ambushed - ( am bush’d ) - 54 - trapped / attacked from a hidden place
amends - ( uh mends ) - 7, 32, 77, 83, 85, 86, 87, 94, 108 - restorations /
corrections / restitutions / things done to make corrections for, or ‘make up for’
harm, loss, or damage done to or experienced by another
analysis - ( uh nal uh sis ) or ( uh nal us sees ) - 91
- evaluation / appraisal / judgment regarding the worth or importance
analyzing - ( an uh lye zing ) - 33 - reviewing / looking at / examining
anarchists - ( an ar kists / an ur kists ) - 130
- people who believe governmental authority unnecessary and undesirable
anarchy - ( an ar key / an ur kee ) - 129 - disorder / confusion / lawlessness
anchorage - ( an kuh ridj / ang kur idj ) - 72
- connection / attachment / stable position, foundation, relationship, or basis
ancient - ( ain shunt ) - 6,56,94,166 - old / very old / of great age / historic
anew - ( uh new / uh noo ) - 50 - again / in a new and different way
angle - ( ang ul ) - 109, 132, 152, 153
- trick / a scheme or distortion of information to present a particular point of view / a special way, often deceptive or improper, of achieving an aim
angrily - ( ang ruh lee ) - 67, 167, 177
- in anger / furiously / with bad temper or displeasure
anguish - ( ang gwish ) - 144 - extreme pain / distress / torment / anxiety
animated - ( an uh may tid / anna may tid ) -175 - energized / having life
animates - ( an uh mates ) - 151 - inspires / encourages / gives life to
annoy -( uh noy )- 67 - anger / bother / irritate / aggravate / disturb / madden
annoyed - ( uh noy’d ) - 48 - irritated / angered / disturbed - see annoy
annual - ( an yull / an you’ll ) - 89 - yearly / done or happening every year
anonymity - ( an uh nim uh tee / anna nim it ee ) / also see anonymous
- 35 entries on pages 12,13,158,170,171,180,182,183,184,185,186,187,192
- being unknown or unacknowledged / namelessness / the practice of not disclosing or acknowledging AA members names or photographs in any
media, broadcast, film, or public print / the quality or state of being anonymous
anonymous - ( uh non uh muss / uh nonna muss ) - 77 entries
- without name / unidentified / undisclosed / having an unknown or unacknowledged name / not known / unknown, usually by choice /
not having a clear or characteristic way to be known or recognized
antisocial - ( an tye so shull / an tee so shull ) -171 - not sociable
- disrespectful / acting disrespectful of, interfering with, or avoiding others
anvils - ( an vulz ) - 131 - blocks of iron or steel used to shape metals
anxieties - ( ang zie uh tees ) - 45, 52, 123
- worries / cares / concerns / fears / troubled states of mind
anxiety - ( ang zie uh tee ) - 52, 56, 74, 135, 140 - see anxieties
anxious - ( anx shuss / anks shuss ) - 57, 94 - uneasy / restless /
impatient / fearful / irritable / eager or desirous to the point of frustration /
full of anxiety and fear about the future / lacking self confidence /
easily upset or distressed / unable to be patient or calm
anxiously - ( anx shus lee ) - 129 - with uneasy concern / see anxious
apartness - ( uh part nuss ) - 57
- separation / state of being set apart or away from others / exclusion
apologies - ( uh pa lu jeez ) - 79, 84 - expressions of regret for wrongs done
apparent -( uh pair unt )- 64,135,150,160,186 - clear / obvious / easy to see
apparently - ( uh pair unt lee / uh pair ent lee ) - 22, 132
- seemingly / evidently / appearing as such but not necessarily so
appeal - ( uh peel ) - 74 - seem interesting / attract / call
appeals - ( uh peelz ) - 162, 184 - requests for help or information
applicants -( ap luh kunts )-148 - seekers of a job, position, or membership
application - ( ap luh kay shun ) - 15,17,90,185 - use / practice / exercise
appraisal -( uh prayz ull )- 32, 54 - consideration / assessment / evaluation /
examination / review / measurement / judgment of worth or value
appraise - ( uh prayz ) - 59 - evaluate / consider / measure / view / rate
appraising - (uh pray zing ) - 52 - reviewing / evaluating / considering
apt - ( app’t ) - 45,57,60,62,66,67,73,85,92,96,164 - likely / inclined / prone
architect - ( ar keh tekt / ark uh tekt ) - 149 - builder / designer / creator
ardent - ( ar dnt / ard unt / ar dent ) - 111, 182
- eager / intense / ambitious ( 111 ) devoted / enthusiastic / passionate ( 182 )
argue - ( arg u ) - 85, 176 - debate / discuss / express differing viewpoints
arose - ( uh rose ) - 18, 157 - appeared / came up / emerged / developed
arouse - ( uh ralz ) - 15, 80 …d - ( uh ralz’d ) - 44 …s - ( uh ral zuz ) - 52
- stir up / awaken / excite / provoke / stir / inspire / prompt / stimulate
arranging - ( uh rain jing ) - 110 - planning and preparing / setting up
arrant - ( air unt ) - 60 - absolute / complete / total
arteries - ( ar tuh reez / art uh reez ) - 129 - passage ways / blood carriers
aside - ( uh side ) - 91, 115, 137, 143, 150, 164, 187
- away / on or to one side / apart
aspects -( as pekts / ass peckts )- 66,185 - features / parts / characteristics
aspiration - ( as puh ray shun ) - 101 apirations - (… shunz ) - 186
- aim / desire / goal / ambition / desire for high achievement / goal or purpose
assailed - ( uh sail’d ) - 22, 167
- attacked / assaulted / intensely attacked with harsh language ( 167 )
assassination - ( uh sass uh nay shun ) - 67 - attack / destruction / injury
assert - ( uh sert ) - 92 - claim / declare / positively say asserted - 152
assets - ( ass ets ) - 6, 42, 46, 75, 88, 93, 95, 113
- positives / useful or valuable qualities or things / advantages or resources
associates - ( uh so she its / uts ) ( uh so see its / uts ) - 51, 79, 92, 186
- partners / friends / companions / peers / colleagues
assumed - ( uh soom’d ) - 133
- taken for granted / accepted / assumed / taken for or as one’s right
assurance - ( uh shore unts ) - 28, 33, 39, 104, 172
- freedom from doubt / guarantee / certainty / confidence / promise / faith / trust
assure -( uh shur )- 27,79 - inform / remove doubt from / make sure to
assured -( uh shur’d )-76,98- made to feel sure, certain, confident, and secure
astonish - ( uh ston ish ) - 84 - surprise / amaze astonishing -140 - amazing
astray - ( uh stray ) - 50,59 - away from the desired path, direction, or behavior
asunder - ( uh sun dur ) - 176 - apart / into separate parts, pieces, or direction
asylum - ( uh sye lum) -140 …s - ( … lumz ) -157 - psychiatric hospital /
- a place where the sick, very poor, and especially the insane, are cared for
at heart - ( at hart ) - 123 - in our deepest feeling / fundamentally
at large - ( at larj ) - 53, 112 - as a whole / in general / without limits
at length - ( at lengkth / at leng’th ) - 90, 143 - eventually / after some time
atheist - ( aye thee ist / aye thee ust ) - 26, 28, 33, 107, 143
- one that does not believe in and denies the existence of God or gods
atheistic -( aye thee is tik / aye thee iz tik )- 62 - as an atheist - see atheist
atmosphere - ( at muss fear ) - 85, 97, 100 - air / feeling / effect / mood
- surrounding conditions, influences, and circumstances
atom - ( at um ) - 97 - basic part of all / smallest particle or unit of a matter
attain - ( uh tain ) - 28, 64 - get / gain / have / reach / earn / achieve / realize
attainment - ( uh tain munt ) - 70 - realization / gaining / see - attain
attitude - ( at uh tood ) - 7, 23, 27, 65, 75, 76, 79, 83, 168, 174, 182
attitudes -9,24,56,92,114,115,116,120,125 - point of view / stance / mood
- characteristics of personality / mental position / feeling toward
- a negative, hostile, defiant, and arrogant manner or mannerism
attributes - ( at trib yoots ) - 29, 67 - qualities / characteristics / traits
authority-( ah thor uh tee )-9,10,12,16,132,133,172,173,174,189,190,
191,192 - power / one who has the right and power to rule, govern, or judge
autonomous - ( ah tawn uh mus ) - 10, 146 - independent / self reliant
- self supporting, self governing, self regulating, and self sufficient
autonomy -( ah tawn uh me )- 146 - being autonomous - see - autonomous
- From text - page 146 “…it means very simply that every A.A. group can manage its affairs as it pleases, except when A.A. as a whole is threatened.”
avail -( uh vale )- 34 - help / benefit / serve / profit / be of use or advantage to
avalanche - ( av uh lanch ) - 133, 162 - flood / huge amount / landslide
aversion - ( uh verzshun ) - 73, 160 - dislike / hatred / opposition / resistance
axiom -( ak see um / ax zee um )-90 - basic truth or rule / saying / assumption
Bacchus -( bah kus / bok us )- 57 - From Roman & Greek mythology - god of
wine and barley. Bacchus was also the god of the theater. Considered by the
Romans same as the Greek god, Dionysus. ( die uh nee sus / die uh nye sus )
backslider - ( bak slide er ) - 173 - person who drinks alcoholic drinks again /
- one who relapses / one who ‘slides back’ to wrongdoing or a worse condition.
backtracks - ( bak traks ) - goes back over the path one [ he/she ] has come
baffled - ( baf ull’d ) -182 - puzzled / confused / frustrated / bewildered
baffling - ( baf ling ) - 15 - frustrating / mysterious / confusing / difficult
balance sheet -( bal unts sheet )- 89, 93 - a listing of positive and negative quantities or qualities for review, evaluation, or summary ( ‘totaling up’ )
balanced people - 90 - mentally and emotionally stable - people
baleful -( bay’l ful / bail ful )- 38 - dangerous / bad / harmful / weakening
balk - ( balk ) - 44 - strain / recoil / shrink / stop short and refuse / resist
balked -( balk’d )- 108 - stopped / resisted / stopped and refused to go on
band - ( band ) - 130, 146 - group / group of individuals / troop
banded - ( ban did ) -15 - joined / gathered / united
banished - ( ban ish’d ) - 76, 173 - forced to leave / driven away / cast out
bankrupt -( bank rup’t )-15 - discredited / “down-and-out” / destitute / ruined /
- empty or lacking in needed or valuable qualities or resources
bankruptcy - ( bank rupt see ) - 21,107 - being bankrupt - see bankrupt
- state of emptiness, failure, ruin, and powerlessness / lack of resources / ruin
barbed -( barb,d )- 67 - peaked / sharpened / made sharp - cutting - stinging
barest - ( bair ist ) - 73 - …is the… least or minimum of a… beginning.
barren -( bair un )- 72 - empty / unproductive / “…missing a working faith…”
barrier - ( bair ee ur ) - 57, 141 - block / wall / obstruction / obstacle
barrooms - ( bar rooms ) - 116 - a place where alcoholic beverages are sold
basis - ( bay suss ) - 9, 37, 72, 76, 108, 116, 140
- base / foundation / basic idea / footing / basic truth / something upon which something else is built / position or circumstance from which to operate
bask - ( bask ) - 133 - delight in / take great satisfaction in / indulge in
battering - ( batter ing ) - 146 - beating / repeated strikes, blows, challenges
beached - ( beech’t / like reached ) - stranded / left behind or in an
uncomfortable place / see - summarily beached
beam - 84,111,112 - desired or aimed for manner or state of being, particularly in behavior, emotions, thinking, and spiritual condition. / ”…the A.A. beam.“ (84) - guidelines within or suggested by “The 12 Steps” Big Book - 3rd Ed. - Stories: ‘Promoted to Chronic’ - Pg.471- last paragraph. ( Attributes often considered as being “on the beam” = honesty, faith, courage, considerate, humility, giving, calm, grateful, patience, tolerance, forgiveness, love, self-forgetfulness, humility, modesty, self-forgiveness, trust, moderation, action )
bear - ( bair / bare ) - 33, 98, 115 - to apply force to or influence ( 98 )
- stand / tolerate / something difficult to do ( 33,115 )
Beatitudes -( be at uh toods )- 30 - any of the statements in the Sermon on the Mount ( King James Bible - Matthew 5:3 -11 ) beginning “Blessed are…”
begats - ( be gats ) - 30 - ( past tense of beget ) - notes relating someone being the father of, or giving birth to, someone else ( Biblical )
beat-up - 170 - badly worn / in bad shape / knocked about roughly
( …beat-up topers… ) - topers - ( toe purz ) - those who drink to excess
bedeviled - ( beh dev ull’d ) - 78 - troubled / tormented / plagued / controlled
bedrock - ( bed rock ) - 21,50 - foundation / basis / solid rock under loose soil
behave - ( beh hay’v ) - 37, 119 - act / react / function / perform
- to conduct oneself in a proper, specified, or particular way
behavior - ( beh hay’v your ) - 16,33,45,51,52,53,55,78,85,123 - how one behaves ( see behave ) / actions / reactions / conduct / function / performance
- actions as they make up a way of evaluation by others / response to
belaboring -( beh lay bur ing )- 30 - verbally attacking / discussing repeatedly belligerent -( beh lidj ur unt )- 25 - defiant / combative / eager to fight / hostile
bender -( ben dur )- 79 - period of time spent drinking in an uncontrolled way
benefactors - ( ben uh fak turs ) - 161 - financial supporters / contributors
benefit -( ben uh fit )- 60, 96, 98 - positive result / value / good / importance
benevolent - ( buh nev uh lunt) - 172 - charitable / generous / giving
benevolent association - 172 - a group organized to support charity ( giving )
benign - ( beh nine ) - 133 - kind / harmless / showing a favorable influence
bent upon - 64 - to apply themselves in the different direction of
bereavement - ( beh reev munt ) - 112
- being left alone or suffering loss, especially by death
- lacking in advantage, opportunity, experience, economic or social needs
beset - ( beh set ) - 52, 58, 133 - surround / surrounded / trouble / troubled
- set upon or attacked from all sides / possess / possessed / take / taken
besetting - ( beh set ing ) - 30 - constantly troubling / that which besets one
- possessing / ( in allusion to Biblical - Hebrews xii -1 - …besetting sin… )
besieged - ( beh seej’d ) - 187 - attacked / troubled / harassed / plagued
best-intentioned - ( best - in ten shun’d ) -113 - see - intention
bestowal - ( beh sto ull ) - 151 - presentation / offering / passing on as a gift
bewildered - ( beh wil durd ) - 28 - confused / completely lost in one’s way
biased - ( by ust ) - 99 - unfairly judgmental / unfavorably influenced
bigotry - ( big uh tree ) - 30 - intolerance / inequality / unfairness / prejudice
- not acceptant, tolerant, or respectful, of others group, religion, race, or politics
big shot ( shot ) - 47, 51, 92, 116 - important or special person /
- an important or prominent member of a profession or organization
big-shot-ism - 8, 92 - acting like a big shot / see - big shot and - ism
big-time - 159 - very serious / the worst [ best ] kind of / the highest ranking
binge -( binj )- 148,168 s -( bin juz )- 38,120 - period/s of time spent drinking
heavily / to participate in excessive or uncontrolled indulgence in food or drink
bitter -( bit ur )- 123,177 - resentful / insulting / without respect or acceptance
- critical or untrusting of the motives or integrity of others - sharp / harsh (177)
bitterly - ( bit ur lee ) - 28, 115 - painfully / brutally / hatefully / resentfully
bitterness - ( bit ur nuss ) - 38, 52 - resentfulness / being bitter - see bitter
- possible as used on Pg. 52 > - difficulty in accepting, admitting, or bearing
blasphemy -( blass fuh me )-143,145 - lack of respect for God / insulting
or showing contempt or lack of respect for God or anything held as sacred
bleeding deacon - ( … dee kun ) - 10, 135 s - 135 - an overly emotional assistant - ( text definition on Pg. 135 ) / also see deacon
blindly - ( bl i n’d lee ) - 42, 65 - without, or independent of, control or reason
blissful state - ( bliss full state ) - 113 - extremely happy condition of being
block - 49, 76, 123 - stop / barrier / obstruction ( 49 ) / closes / obstructs / cut off from site ( 76 ) / piece / set of similar items / mold ( 123 ) also see chips
bludgeoned -( bluh jun’d )- 75 - struck down / pressured / forced / repeatedly struck / overcome by being beaten with a short, heavy, stick or club / bloodied
bluffing - ( bluff ing ) - 51, 69 - misleading / displaying a false confidence
blunders - ( blun durz ) - 60 - mistakes / serious errors of judgment
board -( bord )- 12,132,136,140,148,162,164,165,168,173,175,182,189 ,191
- a group of people given or assigned the responsibility of management,
administration, supervision, or investigation
- payment for meals / payment for temporary shelter and meals - ( 136 )
boarded - ( bord id ) - 137 - provided food and shelter for
boasted - ( boast id ) - 123, 163 - bragged / talked with excessive pride
body politic - ( body… pah luh tik / polla tik ) - 133
- the majority of our members / the larger part of a group or organization
bog - ( bog / balg ) - 45 - swamp / area of soft and wet ground
bogeymen -( boo gee / bow gee / boog ee men )- 49 - needless imaginary fears / imaginary monsters often used to threaten or frighten children
bogged down -( bog’d / balg’d down )-156- slowed or stopped as if in a bog
boiler - ( boy lur ) -149 - a tank or container used to heat or boil water
bolster - ( bowl stur ) - 6 - support / to help keep from weakening or failing
boomeranged - ( boom uh rang’d ) - 57 - came back / backfired / returned the opposite result of that desired / to produce an unexpected or undesired effect
bore down hard - 152 - concentrated / focused / stressed in spite of opposition
bored -( bord )- 92 - disinterested & tired of ‘our being dull, tedious, repetitive’
bottom -( bot um )- 5,24,94,148 - “…admission of hopelessness.” ( Pg. 23 ) /
( Program definition - generally: a time in ones life when alcoholism has
brought a sense of absolute hopelessness, which is later viewed as a turning point and beginning toward recovery. ) / to reach the lowest level or the least favorable position / the lowest, deepest, or under, part or point /
Text references: Pg. 23 - “…low-bottom cases…” and “…raise the bottom..”
bound - ( like ‘sound’ ) - 40, 81, 89, 150, 158
- certain / sure ( 40, 81, 89, 158 ) / forced / required / held ( 150 )
boundaries - ( boun duh reez ) - 8, 101 - limits
bounds - ( bounz / like sounds ) - 67 - limits / margins / restrictions
bowing -( like pow ing )- 96 - kneeling in respect / submitting / surrendering
bowled over ( bold over ) - 136 - powerfully impressed / taken by surprise
bracing - ( bray sing ) - 98 - refreshing / strengthening / health-giving
braggart - ( brag urt ) - 66 - self admiring showoff /
- one given to empty self admiration, bragging, or boasting
brash -( like trash )- 143 - hasty and unthinking / lacking in sensitivity / rash
brats - 174 - bad mannered and annoying children
breadwinner - ( bread winner ) - 118 - one who provides financial support
breeder - ( bree dur ) - 49 - source / cause / creator
brew - ( broo ) - 133, 142 - make / create
broker -( broke ur )- 16 - stockbroker / agent for sales of companies stock
broods - ( broodz ) - 39
- thinks / dwells / thinks at length in a gloomy or resentful state of mind
brotherhood - 37,53,77,116 - fellowship / friendliness / people united for
common aims / a pleasant association or condition of being friends
browbeat -( brow beat )-143- continually annoyed, pressured, and harassed
- to frighten or pressure with threats or a show of force / bully / intimidate
buffeted -( buf uh tid )- 69 - beaten / battered / struck heavily and repeatedly
bugs in it - 158 - flaws, defects, or difficulties in it
building of character - 65 - see character and character building
burden - ( bur dun ) - 62, 86 - load / weight / pressure / obligation
bureau - ( b’you’re oh ) - 145 - a writing table or desk with drawers /
- a chest of drawers for clothes, or ‘dresser’, usually used in a bedroom
bush-league pinch hitter - ( bush leeg pinch hit ur... ) - 75
- a substitute batter in a minor league baseball game
busybody -( bizzy body )- 156 - one who concerns himself with others affairs
broth - ( brah th ) - 156 - the water part of soup / soup stock / soup base
buttonholing - ( button hole ing ) - 185 - holding a person in conversation, against their will, as if by holding a clothing button / [ origin: ‘button-holding’ ]
bygones - ( by gone’z ) - 79 - things that are past, especially past offences /
- gone by / the past, especially a dissatisfaction, resentment, debt, or offense
bypass - ( by pass ) - 55 - avoid / ignore / go around / pass by or around
calamities - ( kuh lam uh teez ) - 113 - disasters / tragedies / hardships
calamity -( kuh lam uh tee )- 9, 31, 112, 116 - disaster / hardship / hard times
calculated -( kal k’yuh lay tid )-7 - planned / purposeful / carefully considered
callous - ( kal us ) - 81 - unfeeling / insensitive / hardhearted / unemotional
camp -( kamp )- 158 - side / group of people who share a cause or think alike
campaign - ( kam pain ) - 157 - effort / organized effort to achieve an aim
campus -( kam pus )- 119 - places where members gather / meeting grounds
candor - ( kan dur ) - 57 - honesty and openness / sincerity / directness
capability -( kay puh bil uh tee )- 104 - power to bring about a result / ability
capable of -( kay puh bul ov )- 38,63 - able to show or exhibit / able / having
capitalists - ( kap it ul lists ) - 156 - people with great wealth / investors
capsize - ( kap size ) - 139 - overturn / tip over / sink
careers -( kuh rear’z )- 55,122,170 - lives / history / background ( 55, 122 )
- jobs / permanent occupation or lifework ( 170 )
cart before the horse - 114 - less important ahead of the most important
- to reverse the natural or proper order
cast - ( kast ) - 35, 89, 132, 171 - throw ( 35, 132 ) / see cast up
cast up - ( kast up ) - 89, 171 - create / form / make
casual - ( kazsh wul / kah zshu wul / kah szhul ) - 79, 85
- not serious / relaxed / easy / informal / offhand / chance / occasional
casualty - ( kaz yule tee ) - 113 - death / victim / one injured or killed
catalog -( kat uh log )- 4, 59 - list / detailed item list systematically arranged
catalogue - ( kat uh log ) - 81 - list or itemized display / see catalog
catastrophe - ( kuh tas truh fee / kuh tast ruh fee ) - 31, 113
- disaster / tragedy / crisis / blow / severe misfortune, usually unexpected
cater - ( kay tur ) - 140 - serve / support / attend to the wants or needs of
Catholic - ( kath uh lik / kath lik ) - 147 - members of the Catholic Church
ceaselessly -( seece lis lee )- 49 - constantly / continually / without stopping
cell - ( sell ) - 25
- smallest structural part of an organism that is able to function independently
centered - ( sent urd ) - 56 - see spiritually centered
central -( sen trul / sent rul )- ‘Grand Central Station’ address not included.
- at, in, near, or forming the center / core / average / in-between /
- relating to a basic or main part / foundation / primary / underlying / principle
… central government - 16, 174 - group of people who make rules or laws and hold the power of absolute authority and control
… central or intergroup committee - 191 - a group of people ( committee ) elected by their group meeting members, or in some cases volunteers, who serve to perform administrative functions for AA in some cities or areas.
… central theme - 150, 174 - main point / primary factor / principle focus
centuries - ( sent cher eez / sench ur eez ) - 98 - periods of 100 years
century - ( sent chur ee / sench ur ee ) - 56, 178 - period of 100 years
certainty - ( surt un tee ) - 86, 124, 166
- likelihood ( 86 ) / fact / assurance / trust / conviction / faith ( 124, 166 )
chain - 155 - see - hospital chain
chain reaction - ( chain ree act shun ) - 17, 164
- series of events in which each one causes or influences the next
chalk that up - 93 - add / write / record that / consider that / credit that
chalking up debits - 89 - accounting for debts / adding or noting negatives
challenge - ( chal unj ) - 114 s - ( chal un zuz ) - 8, 89
- demands / test of one’s abilities or resources / call to action or account
challengingly - ( chal lin jing lee / chal unj ing lee ) - 138
- in a questioning manner / demanding explanation or justification / defiantly
channel -( chan ul )- 99,101,102,103,109,133,169 s-( chan ulz )- 8,180
- ways, routes, or means by which something is communicated, transmitted,
or carried // force / power / cause / means / that by which something is carried, communicated, transmitted, or accomplished ( 99, 101, 102, 103, 109, 180 )
- give / carry / offer / take / direct or guide along a desired course ( 133, 169 )
channeled -( chan ul’d )-186 - managed / used / directed in use / allocated
character -( kair ik/uk tur )- 6,45,46,48,49,50,51,53,55,56,63,65,67,69,71,
72,73,76,108,109,141 - a distinctive way of looking or acting / style /
manner / way / an example of curious or unexpected behavior / an essential
and distinctive trait / feature / mannerism / quality / a person’s emotional,
intellectual, and moral qualities / personality / nature / public estimation of
someone / reputation / image / standing / status / one’s general behavior
character assassination - ( … uh sass uh nay shun ) - 67, 158, 172, 174
- being severely critical of another person / intense personal verbal attack intended to destroy or damage someone’s reputation / slander / mudslinging
character-building-71,72,74- adding of positive qualities to one’s character
… building of character - 65 - see - character
character defects // also for - defects of character - 6,7,8,45,46,47,48,49,
50,51,52,53,54,55,56,58,59,63,65,66,67,68,69,73,74 ,76,78,82,84,108
-- Related: character flaws - personality flaws - character - flaws
- attitudes, actions, reactions, wrong thinking and wrong doing, that stand in
the way of our usefulness to God and our fellows - ( Big Book - Page 76 )
- Weak items in our personal inventory that act as obstacles in our path toward getting a new attitude and a new relationship with our Creator. ( Big Bk-Pg.72 )
- "bad personality traits" ( Big Book - Personal Story - He Sold Himself Short )
- “representing instincts gone astray,…” ( 12 and 12 - Page 50 )
- identified flaws in our personality, thinking, emotional reactions, or behavior
character flaws - 50, 73 - see character, flaws, & character defects
characteristic - ( kair ik tur ist ik ) - 5, 31, 185 - trait / attribute / quality / feature / a feature that helps to identify, describe, or tell apart a thing or person
characteristic intemperance - ( kair ik tur ist ik in temp er unts ) - 185
- …their typical excess or lack of moderation /…their distinctive lack of restraint
characteristically - ( kair ik tur ist ik uh lee ) - 71 - like us / typical of us
characterizes - ( kair ik tur eye zuz ) - 56
- is the mark of / distinguishes / defines / plays a part of / is a quality or trait of
charitable - ( chair eh tuh bul ) - 165 - given / from charity / see charity
charitably disposed -( chair eh tuh blee dis poze’d )- 168 - people who are usually in favor of giving to charity / normally generous in giving - see - charity
charity -( chair uh tee )- 116, 144, 181 - giving / help / donations / help given
to the needy / gift to a charity or cause / organization that helps those in need
charter -( char tur )- 148 - authorization / document showing official approval
cheer -( ch ear )- 82,114 - encourage ( 82 ) / lightness of spirit or mood ( 114 )
cherished - ( chair ish’t ) - 129 - highly valued / respected / important / prized
chief -( cheef )- 7,39,49,76,90,149 - main / most important / primary / leading
chiefly - ( cheef lee ) - 45 - mainly / mostly / primarily / largely
childish - ( child ish ) - 123 childishly - ( child ish lee ) - 115
- acting like a child / lacking in maturity / immature / like a child or children
chaos - ( kay oss ) - 1 - confusion / disorder / unrest / struggle / lack of order
chill chokedamp - 149 - a cool suffocating air / a discouraging and suffocating atmosphere / sudden deadly air / cold black air / chokedamp from ‘blackdamp’
( black + damp gas ) - a suffocating gas found in mines after a fire or explosion
chink - ( cheenk ) - 46 - crack / weak spot / narrow opening or weak area
chips - 123 - small pieces / ( text use: just another abnormally fearful person )
chokedamp - ( choke damp ) - 149 - see chill chokedamp
chronic - ( kron ik ) - 66, 173 - constant / continual / frequent / repeated
chunk - 88, 161 - large piece / important or large part / considerable amount
churchman - ( church mun ) - 174 - church member / a member of a church
cinch - ( sinch ) - 176 - sure thing / a certainty / given / something easy to do
circulation - ( surk yuh lay shun / sur kyuh lay shun ) - 185 - being spread
circumstance - ( sir kum stants ) - 38, 124 - condition / event / occasion
circumstances -( sir kum stants iz )- 26,40,92,97,104,121,157 - conditions,
events, or occasions / a thing or things that happen / a condition or fact which
determines, or needs considered, in deciding a course of action
cite - ( sight ) - 30 - quote / state in detail
citizen -( sit uh zen )-171,185 s -(...zunz )-177 - member of a community or
social group / member of society ( 171,185 ) / residents / inhabitants ( 177 ) citizenship - ( sit uh zun ship ) - 110 - citizen status / membership
clamor - ( klam ur ) - 130 - loud continuous noise / insistent demands
clamored - ( klam urd ) - 121 - shouted / called out loudly / insisted
clapboard - ( klap bord ) - 149 - see Wombley’s Clapboard Factory
class - ( klass ) - 71, 140, 166 classes - ( klass uz ) - 83, 135
- group / groups / types / group whose members share similar characteristics
clean house - 56, 60, 63 - house cleaning - 32, 108
( In the ‘Big Book’ of A.A. - 83, 98 - [ in the first 164 pages ] )
- ‘house’ is used meaning one’s life and way of being in general / similar to or the same as “putting one’s own house in order” / restore order, sanity, and responsibility to one’s life / ( J.S. Huxley - 1923 …to organize the inner reality to react with the outer. ) / ( Bible - 2 Kings 20:1 …”Thus saith the Lord, Set thine house in order: for thout shalt die, and not live.” )
cleavage - ( klee vid’j ) - 11, 167 - separation / division / differences
clergyman -( klur jee mun )- 61,63 - ordained church representative / minister
clergymen -( klur jee min )- 17,32,63,96,180 - church ministers or members
Cleveland's Plain Dealer -186 - a newspaper located in Cleveland, Ohio-USA
clinched - ( klinch’d ) - 141 - secured / supported / held together
clinked thinly -( klingk’d … )- 163 - made a small, light & sharp ringing sound
closed corporation - 171 - a business ( corporation ) in which interests and investments ( shares of stock ) are not open to or owned by the general public
closest scrutiny - ( klo sust skroot’n ee ) - 94
- most careful and complete search, examination, or observation
club-minded - 148 - interested in or supportive of clubhouses
clutch - ( klutch ) - 45 - attempt to grab / to attempt to hold or seize tightly
codified - ( ko duh fide / kod eh fide ) - 17
- listed / arranged and shown in a special order / grouped / organized
coercion - ( ko ur shun / ko ur zhun ) - 12, 74 - force / demands / threats
coin… …sentences - 173 - compose / create / make new / devise / author
cold - 44, 81, 97 ( see hot and cold by turns ) - 144
- indifferent / plain / unfeeling / cold hearted ( 44 )
- unfeeling / insensitive / cheerless / cold-hearted / unaffectionate /
unresponsive to or unaware of the feelings or needs of others ( 81 )
- completely / totally / absolutely ( 144 )
collective poverty - ( kuh lek tive pov ur tee ) - 11, 160
- shared condition of being poor / common lack of wealth or needed funds /
… “So A.A., the movement, started and stayed broke, … ( Page 161 - Top )
collectively - ( kuh lek tiv lee ) - 12, 174, 177 - as a group / all together
collision - ( ku liz shun ) - 44, 80 - “collision of instincts” - ( 44 )
“instincts in collision” ( 80 ) / crash / impact / violent contact or confrontation
come to grips with - 69, 73 - deal with firmly and in a straightforward way
comical - ( kom eh kul ) - 140 - funny / foolish / humorous / laughable
commence -( kuh ments )- 50,75,81,88,115,131,132,147 - start / begin
commenced-(…ments’d )-39,107,157 commences-(…ments iz )-74,119
commission -( kuh mish un )-89,170 s-170 - actions done / acts committed
( 89 ) / group of people officially authorized to perform certain duties ( 170 )
committee - ( kuh mit ee ) - 134
- a group of people officially assigned to perform a function or act on a matter
committeemen - ( kuh mit ee mun ) - 169 - members of a committee
committees - ( kuh mit eez ) - 10, 12, 168, 172, 173 - plural of committee
Communist -( kom yuh nist )- 147 - a system of government where a single party holds power, controls the economy and th***etical equal sharing of goods
compatibility - ( kum pat uh bil it ee / kum pat uh bil uh tee ) - 119
- the ability or state of being compatible / see compatible
compatible - ( kum pat uh bul ) - 30, 117-118
- capable of existing or performing in harmonious, agreeable, or congenial combination with another or others / in harmonious or logical agreement
compel - ( kum pel ) - 129, 132, 141
- force / pressure / make / to force to act or think in a particular way
compelling - ( kum pel ing ) - 117 - forceful / urgent / pressing / powerful
competent -( kom pih tunt )- 111 - sufficiently or properly qualified / capable
complaint - ( kum plaint ) - 114 - expression of resentment or dissatisfaction
composed - ( kum poze’d ) - 133, 160, 178, 181 - made up / formed
compounded -( kom pound id )- 149 - made greater / magnified / multiplied
comprehension -( kom preh hen shun )- 53 - appreciation / understanding
compromised -( kom pruh mized )- 170 - risked / exposed to damage or loss
compromises -( kom pruh my zuz )-166 - places at risk / threatens / gambles
compromising -( kom pruh my zing )- 158 - threatening / possibly damaging
compulsion - ( kum pul shuns ) - 22, 117, 133 compulsions - 73, 151
- seemingly uncontrollable urge or action / irresistible impulse to act,
regardless of the rationality of the motivation / an insistent impulse to behave
in a certain way, contrary to one’s conscious intentions or standards
conceit - ( kun seet ) - 104 - too high opinion of oneself and one’s abilities /
fanciful or extravagant thoughts or opinions / lack of humility / self-importance
conceivable -( kun seev uh bul )- 141,146,169 - thinkable ( see - conceive )
conceive -( kun seev )- 177 - think / believe / have the opinion that / imagine
concentrate -( kon sun trate )- 71 - focus / direct one’s thoughts or attention
concepts -( kon seps )- 174 - ideas / thoughts / notions / mental formations
concerned -( kun surn’d )- 7,22,30,47,53,56,77,79,86,94,108,120,150,178
- involved / interested / of interest or importance to /- troubled / made troubled,
anxious, or uneasy, as a result of one’s interest in something or someone
concerted -( kun sir tid )- 150 - combined / united / mutually agreed upon
conclude - ( kun klood ) - 38, 67, 85 concludes - ( kon kloodz ) - 153
concluded - ( kun kloo did ) - 28, 31, 151, 163
- find / found / see / decide / decided / determined / ended / completed /
- to decide after consideration / to agree with or form a final judgment about /
- bring to or come to an end / to end or understand in a particular way
conclusion - ( kun kloo zshun ) - 73,123,135,170 conclusions - 34,50
- finding / decision / deduction / end result, judgment, or decision reached
condemned -( kun dem’d )- 22, 30 - cursed / sentenced ( 22 ) judged ( 30 )
condition - ( kun dish un ) - 12, 72, 122 - situation / state / shape / status /
circumstances / footing / terms / principle / the manner or circumstances of one’s existence // - established position from which to operate // - a state of soundness and readiness for action // - sickness / disease / defect / disorder
conditions -( kun dish unz )-8,31,47,52,63,87,88,93,108,118 -see condition
confession - ( kun fesh un ) - 6 - from Pg. 56 - “ This practice of admitting one’s defects to another person…” / - the act of admitting to something
confide -( kun fide )- 6,61,108 - to tell or disclose something in confidence / trust with sharing private matters / ( Pg.61 “…share your… …self-survey.” )
confided - ( kun fye did ) - 145 - disclosed / revealed / see confide
confidence-( kon feh dunce )-6,48,50,51,61,78,110,112,142,165,184,185,186
- a condition in which one is free from doubt / sureness / belief / trust / faith
- a firm belief in one’s powers / self-confidence / assurance /
- firm belief in another’s trustworthiness / trust / belief / faith / conviction /
- acceptance as true or valid / belief / trust / assurance / faith / credit
- a tendency always to expect a favorable result / hopefulness
confident -( kon feh dunt )- 83, 85,137,146 - sure / assured / expecting a favorable outcome / trustful / trusting // - self-assured or assertive ( 137 )
confiding - ( kun fye ding ) - 58 - telling / trusting / sharing / - see confide
confinement -( kun fine munt )- 62,155 - captivity / imprisonment / restraints
confirm - ( kun furm ) - 98 s - 60 - affirm / verify / prove / establish as true
conflict - ( kon flikt ) - 44, 51, 108 conflicts - ( kon flikts ) - 57, 80, 108
- disharmony / division / disagreement / inner or external struggles / fighting between opposing forces /( Psychology: A mental struggle, often unconscious, resulting from the opposition or simultaneous functioning of mutually exclusive impulses, desires, or tendencies. – American Heritage Dictionary )
conform - ( kun form ) - 6, 10, 40, 130, 136, 141, 146, 173, 174
- agree / adapt / act or be in agreement with / go along with / correspond
conformity -( kun form uh tee )- 174,189 - agreement / sameness / similarity
confronted - ( kun frun tid ) - 25, 46 - faced / met / met head on / taken
confused - ( kun fewz’d ) - 111, 156
- unable to think clearly or act with understanding / puzzled / flustered / baffled
confusion - ( kun fyoo zshun ) - 28, 48, 111, 148, 149
- a state of disorder or disturbance / chaos / disorganization / turmoil / agitation
congratulate - ( kun gratch uh late / kun gradj uh late ) - 66, 112
- praise / compliment / applaud / express admiration and approval of
connives - ( kuh nive’z ) - 135 - plots / plans secretly, illegally, or immorally
conquer - ( konk ur / kongk ur ) - 29 - control / gain control of / overcome
conquest - ( kon kwest ) - 22 - defeat / destruction / mastery / suppression
cons - ( konz ) - 37 - unfavorable factors / negatives / see pros and cons
conscience - ( kon shuns / kont shunts ) - 10, 95, 132, 134, 135, 136,
138, 147, 151, 189 ( also see - group conscience ) - sense of proper, moral, or ethical conduct / awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one’s conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong / in agreement with or conforming to one’s sense of right conduct / awareness of differences between one’s accepted values and one’s thoughts, feelings, or actions
conscience-stricken -( kon chus-strik un )-151 - struck by the awareness of
one’s moral or ethical conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong
conscious - ( kon shus ) - 8, 48, 62, 96, 101, 105 - aware / known / felt /
- aware of one’s surroundings and one’s own existence, feelings, and thoughts
- known or felt from within a person’s mind / intentionally done / purposeful
conscious contact - 8, 96, 101, 105 - a perceived relationship, association,
connection, or communication ( aware / perceived / known + in touch with )
consciousness -( kon shus niss )- 6, 9, 80, 107 - being conscious / a sense
of one’s personal or collective identity, particularly: beliefs, attitudes, habits,
and sensitivities held by or considered characteristic of an individual or a group consequences -( kon sih kwens uz / kont suh kwentz uz)- 8, 21, 87, 111
- results / outcomes / effects / actions or states created or caused
consequently -( kon sih kwent lee )-107,186 - therefore / so / for this reason
conservative - ( kun sur vuh tiv ) - 148 - opposed to change / cautious
considerably -( kun sid ur uh blee )- 121 - significantly / to a high degree
consideration - ( kun sid uh ray shun/z ) - 50, 86, 90, 164 s - 119
- careful thought / thing/s to be carefully thought about / thoughtful concern
- something promised , given, or done that completes an agreement
considered - ( kun sid urd ) - 95, 109 - carefully thought of / regarded
consist - ( kun sist ) - 58 - be made up / have as it’s base / be composed
consists - ( kun sists ) - 55, 118, 125 - is made up / is based or centered
consistent - ( kun siss tunt ) - 112 - constant / unchanging / steady
consistently - ( kun siss tunt lee ) - 80 - usually / constantly / invariably
conspired - ( kun spyr’d ) - 79 - worked together / joined together
consternation -( kon ster nay shun )- 73,144,156 - great fear, alarm, dread
constructive imagination -( kun struk tiv eh maj uh nay shun )- 100,101
- creative thought that serves to improve or advance / helpful mental images
constructively criticized - ( kun struk tiv lee krit uh sized ) - 94
- pointed out faults or defects so they might be corrected / usefully judged J
consult -( kun sult )-86 - consider / speak with / seek advice or information of
consulted - ( kun sult id ) - 189 - considered / taken into account /
met with to exchange views to reach a decision
consumed -( kun soom’d )- 135 - obsessed / dominated / controlled / eaten
contemplate - ( kon tum plate ) - 37 - think about carefully and at length
contemplation - ( kon tum play shun ) - 192
- thoughtful consideration / regard / notice / reflection / thought / attention
contempt -( kun temp’t )- 184 - dislike / feeling superior mingled with dislike
- the mental state of someone who despises something or someone
contemptuously -( kun temp choo us lee )- 30 - scornfully / see - contempt
content -( kun tent )- 65, 112, 122 - satisfied / pleased / OK / satisfy ( 112 )
contented - ( kun tent id ) - 40 - satisfied / fulfilled / gratified …or made so
contention -( kun ten shun )- 166 - debate / disagreement / dispute / conflict
contentment - ( kun tent munt ) - 43 - satisfaction / well-being / serenity /
- being without pain, worry, or agitation
continual - ( kun tin u ul ) - 76 - steady / constant / uninterrupted
continuation - ( kun tin u ay shun ) - 102 - extension / resumption
continuous - ( kun tin u us ) - 17,40,52,88,114,148 - constant / endless
contradiction -( kon tru dik shun )- 172 - inconsistency / lack of agreement
contrary -( kon trair ee )- 55,105,136,141 - opposite in direction or purpose
- opposing what has been said or what is expected / opposite / contradictory
contrast -( kon trast )- 84, 185 - difference / being opposite or very different
in nature / inconsistency ( 185 ) / also see in sharp contrast
contrasting -( kon trast ing )- 181 - very different / opposite when compared
contributions - ( kon tru byoo shuns ) - 11, 160, 162, 190, 191
- donations / gifts / charity / money granted for a definite purpose
controversial -( kon truh vur shul )-158,176,192 - debated publicly / subject
to strong debate / of, marked by, or producing controversy - see controversy
controversy -( kon truh vur see )- 12, 158, 176, 177, 178, 179 - argument / debate / disagreement / squabble / heated verbal conflict, often a public one
( Page 177 - “…this reluctance to fight one another or anybody else…” )
conventional bounds - ( kun ven shuh nul boundz ) - 67
- traditional, expected, typical, customary, usual, accepted, limits
convert - ( kun vert ) - 163
- save / rescue / influence or move another to do or accept something
converted - ( kun vert id ) - 93 - changed / transformed / remade
conviction - ( kun vik shun ) - 24, 28, 40, 89, 105, 157
- belief / faith / opinion / firm or strong belief / spiritual belief or set of beliefs
convince - ( kun vince ) - 85 - prove to
convinced -( kun vince’d )- 24,25,29,39,72,85,119,135 - brought to believe / in firm belief of the truth of a statement or proposition / in belief
cooperated - ( ko op uh ray tid ) - 12 - acted together in support of our aim
cooperation -( ko op ur aye shun )- 65,183,190 - working together toward a common aim or goal / willingness to follow a prescribed course / collaboration
cope -( kope )-48 - deal / face difficulties and act to overcome them / struggle
copy - 157 - see newspaper copy
cornerstone -( kor nur stone )-12,179 - indispensable and fundamental basis
corporate poverty - ( kor pur it -or- kor prit pov ur tee ) - 165
- from earlier in the same paragraph: “…the principle that A.A. must stay poor.”
corporation -( korp uh ray shun )- 148, 177 s - (...shunz )- 167, 180
- company / business / firm / a commercial organization
counsel - ( kow’n sul ) - 60, 167 - advice / recommendations / guidance
courage -( kur ij )- 7,39,41,83,85,105,112,125,147 - a condition of mind or
spirit that makes one able to face danger, fear, or difficulties with self-control,
confidence, and determination / bravery / heart / strength / fearlessness
courageous - ( kuh ray jus ) - 131 - brave / valiant / showing courage
course -( korss )- 47,81,147 - path / route / deed / guidelines / progression /
mode of action / the direction of movement / also see of course
courtesy -( kurt us ee )- 93 - well-mannered behavior / politeness / respect
covet - ( kuv it ) - 49 - envy / want / wish for longingly / obsessively desire
cowed -( kow’d )-123 - filled with fear / weakened / discouraged / intimidated
crackerjack - ( krack er jak ) - 147 - fine one / excellent example / ( lulu J )
crackpot -( krack pot )- 136 - odd / crazy / weird / loony / oddball / eccentric
crackpots - ( krack pots ) - 140
- people whose beliefs and actions are considered odd, weird, or crazy
credible - ( kred uh bul ) - 141 - believable / likely / true / apparently valid
credits -( kred its )-8,93 - things done right or constructively - See text Pg.93
creed -( kreed )- 141 - faith / religious belief / something one believes as true
crept - ( krep’t ) - 158 - slipped / crawled / moved in a slow and silent way
criminality -( krim in al eh tee )-156 - lawbreaking / those who commit crimes
crisis -( krye sis )- 103,134,135 - emergency / critical point or state of affairs
criticism - ( krit eh siz um ) - 88, 91, 103, 165, 170 - critical evaluation /
fault finding / a judgment of worth or value / an expression of dissatisfaction / the expression of a low opinion / assessment / also see - criticize
criticize -( krit eh size )- 67 - find fault with / pass judgment on / complain of
crosses -( kross iz / krahs siz )-86 - burden / weight / load / ref: Jesus’ cross
cross-examine -( kross ig zam in )- 52 - ask / question / probe / interrogate
crusaders - ( kroo say durz ) - 178
- campaign members / people involved in an effort to accomplish a purpose
cubicle - ( kyoo bik ul / kyoo bih kul ) - 162 - small room or office
culture -( kul chur )-71 - the products of human work & thought, such as arts, beliefs, and institutions / intellectual and artistic activity and the works from it
currency - ( kur un see ) - 147 - money - especially paper money
character - see flaws and character defects




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D.T.'s -( dee teez )- 152 - ( deh lear ee um trim uns ) [ delirium + trembling ]
- short for ‘delirium tremens’ / - a sometimes fatal episode of delirium ( mental confusion, clouded consciousness, often with anxiety, disorientation, trembling,
hallucinations, delusions, and incoherent speech. ) usually caused by
withdrawal or abstinence from alcohol following habitual, excessive drinking.
dawns - ( dawnz ) - 130 - appears / begins to appear / develops / grows
deacon -( dee kun )-135 s - 10,135 - an assistant ( cleric ) ranking below a priest / a prefix to the surname of such a person: Example - Deacon Smith
- a master of his craft / a very capable person / ( see bleeding deacon )
death sentence - 10, 141 - punishment or penalty of death
death warrant -( … war unt )-12,174 - an official order authorizing one to be put to death / something that destroys all hope or expectation / a deathblow
debate - ( deh bait ) - 71, 100, 164
- argue / argument / dispute / deliberate discussion of opposing views
debating society -26- those who argue difficult, perhaps unknowable, ideas
debit -( deb it )- 94 s - ( deb its )- 8,89 - item or items of debt / things owed
debris -( duh bree / day bree )- 77 - wreckage / broken or destroyed things
debt -( det )- 51 s -( dets )- 121,147 - things owed / obligations / offenses
decency - ( de sun see ) - 29 - moral excellence / goodness / morality
- conformity to prevailing standards of right action, morals, or modesty
decent -( de sunt )-121,136,140 - adequate / acceptable / modest (121,136 )
- morally upright / respectable / honorable / good ( 140 )
decidedly -( deh seye did lee )- 152 - clearly / definitely / without any doubt
decision -( deh siz shun )- 5,11,34,38,40,135 s -( ...shunz )- 37,103
- conclusion / determination / deduction / choice / a position, an opinion, or a judgment reached after consideration / the ability to make up one’s mind and carry out one’s intentions / a finding arrived at by reasoning from principles
declare -( deh klair )- 25,56,139,147,171,184 - announce / state / express /
- make one’s thoughts, motives, choice, opinion, or intentions known
declared -( deh klair’d )-22,155,165,167,176,182 - announced / stated / said
declares - 63,110 - announces / expresses / states / says / also see declare
declined - (deh klined / deh kleye’nd ) - 164, 165 - refused / politely refused
declining -( deh kline ing / deh kleye ning )-11,160 - refusing / not accepting
decree -( deh kree )- 134 - determine / command / dictate / direct / authorize
decry - ( deh cry / dih kry ) - 166
- condemn / to write, think, or speak of as being of little value or importance
dedicate -( ded uh kate / ded eh kate )-178- devote / occupy / commit / apply
deep-lying inferiorities - 123 - see inferiorities and inferiority
defeat -( deh feet )- 5,21,22,38,123 - see Step One - “We admitted we were
powerless over alcohol--that our lives had become unmanageable.” // [ Text descriptions: personal powerlessness / removal of self-sufficiency and will to resist / bankruptcy as going human concerns / devastating weakness ( 21 ) //
we would ultimately destroy ourselves / hopeless ( 22 ) ] /// - loss of power to
control or influence / inability to accomplish an aim or purpose / frustration /
destruction / ruin / loss / failure to succeed or win / destruction of spirited force
defeated -( deh feet id )-166 - lost / undone / made ineffective / see defeat
defeats -47,72- losses / [ couldn’t correct conditions to our entire satisfaction ]
defective -( de / di fek tiv )- 80,109 - lacking / faulty / incomplete / imperfect
defects -( dee feks / di fecks )- 6, 7, 8, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54,
55, 56, 58, 59, 63, 65, 66, 67, 68, 69, 73, 74, 76, 78, 82, 84, 108, 131, 148
- see flaws and character defects
defects of character - see flaws and character defects
defensive - ( deh fen siv / deh fents iv ) - 78 - state of being protective to withstand or discourage aggression or attack / constantly protecting oneself from criticism, exposure of one’s shortcomings, or other real or perceived threats to the ego / see also - on the defensive
deferred -( deh fur’d )- 79,83 - delayed / postponed / put off until a later time
defiance -( deh fye unts )- 5, 28, 31 - rebellion / opposition / disagreement / hostility / contempt / disobedience / noncompliance / an attitude or disposition to defy, resist, refuse, or be in conflict with authority figures or opposing forces
defiant -( deh fye unt )-28,174 - openly disobedient / resistant / see defiance
defiantly -( deh fye unt lee )- 146 - lawlessly / disobediently / see defiance
deficiencies -( deh fish un seez )- 58 - weakness or character flaws / faults /
shortcomings / weak points / failings / defects / lacking in ability or capacity
definite - ( def uh nit ) - 67, 103 - actual / clear / certain / real / particular
deflate - ( deh flate ) - 6, 55 - reduce / lesson / lower / weaken / humble
deflation -( deh flay shun )- weakness ( 40 ) / reduction ( 55 ) / see deflate
deflect - ( deh flekt ) - 85 - turn / block / distract / deflect / divert / redirect
deformities -( deh for muh teez )- 43 - distortions / abnormalities / flaws /
disfigurements / imperfections / irregularities / impairments / defects
defying -( deh -or- dee fye ing )- 31, 64 - rebelling against / see defiance
degree -( deh gree )- 28,65,67,70,76,77,107,135 degrees -(…greez )- 48
- small measure, amount, or extent / amount / extent / measure / level
delay -( deh lay )- 7,69 - waiting / putting off until a later time / postponement
deliberately -( deh lib ur it lee )- 91,183 - intentionally / purposely / knowingly
deluded - ( deh lood id ) - 60 - deceived / mislead / misrepresented / fooled
delusions - ( deh loo’z’shunz ) - 58 - false beliefs / beliefs held in spite of evidence that proves them wrong, especially as a symptom of mental illness
demand - ( deh mand ) - 26, 32, 65, 76, 103, 104, 115 - see demands
demanded -( deh mand id )- 76,152 - asked / to ask for urgently or insistently
demands -( deh mandz )- 21, 28, 44, 49, 52, 53, 76, 93, 104, 109, 115, 116
- pleads / appeals / commands / urgent requests, requirements, or expectations
democracy - ( deh mok ruh see ) - 134 - majority rule / government by the people, exercised either directly or through elected representatives
demolished -( deh ma lish’d )- 52 - damaged / tore down / destroyed / ended
demonstrating - ( dem un stray ting ) - 135 - showing / confirming / proving
demonstrations -( dem un stray shuns )-9,114- proofs / examples / displays
denial -( deh nye ull )- 183 - rejection / disapproval / refusal /
- Psychology: an unconscious defense mechanism characterized by refusal to acknowledge painful realities, thoughts, or feelings
dependence -( deh pin dunce )- 5,9,36,38,39,116,117,121 - reliance / trust / belief / being dependent upon, as for support / being determined, influenced, or controlled by something else / a compulsive or chronic need; an addiction
dependent -( deh pen dunt )- 36, 116, 160, 181 - relying on or requiring the aid of another for support / determined or to be determined by something else /
conditional / contingent / having one’s existence depend on another
deposed -( deh poe’z’d )- 135 - dethroned / removed from a position of power
deprecate -( dep rih kate )- 71 - express disapproval of / belittle / object to
depress - ( deh press ) - 168 - lower / reduce / drop / bring down
depressed -(deh press’d )-51,94,123,134 - low or lowered in spirit / unhappy /
downcast / saddened / hopeless / distressed / gloomy / discouraged
depression - ( deh presh un ) - 6, 44, 52, 56, 74, 81 - being depressed /
feeling sad or lacking in response / being or feeling glum, sad, gloomy, sorrowful, cheerless, melancholy /( some qualities of depression may be a part of a grief process in response to a significant loss is in one’s life ) / Psychology: A psychotic or neurotic condition characterized by an inability to concentrate, insomnia, and feelings of extreme sadness, dejection, and hopelessness
depressive - ( deh press ) - 45, 48, 156 - hopeless, sad, gloomy, and unresponsive / one characterized by expressions of sadness, cheerlessness, desperation, and hopelessness / one suffering from psychological depression
deprive -( deh preye’v )- 80, 97, 141 - take something away from / deny / rob
deprived - ( deh preye’v’d ) - 75 - kept from having / withheld from / robbed
deranged -( deh rainj’d )- 112 - emotionally and/or mentally troubled / crazy
derelictions - ( dair uh lik shunz ) - 65 - failures / acts or instances of being lacking in concern or due care / failures to meet or fulfill our obligations /
derelicts -( dair uh licks / … likt’s )- 155 - homeless and/or jobless persons
derive - ( deh reye’v ) - 192 - receive / obtain / gain / hold
descend - ( deh send ) - 133 - come down / come down from a source
desert -( deh zert )- 115 - leave empty / withdraw from / abandon / forsake
deserted -( deh zert id )- 31, 144 - left / abandoned / betrayed / see desert
desirable -( deh zire uh bul )-58,71,72,74- worth having or seeking / favorable
despair - ( deh spair ) - 45, 72, 99, 112, 131
- lose all hope / to be overcome by a sense of defeat or loss of hope
desperate -( dess pur it )- 22,23,36,142 - extreme / severe / life threatening
despite - ( des peye’t ) - 96, 148, 161, 166, 178
- in spite of / regardless of / in disregard, disrespect, defiance, or contempt of
destined -( dess tind )-16 - set apart for or directed toward a purpose or place
destiny -( dess tin ee )- 71, 98 - future / fortune / fate / course of events / life
deteriorate -( dih tear ee uh rate )-174 - weaken / become spoiled or unsound
determination -( dih tur muh nay shun )- 39,141 - intention / ability to make up one’s mind and carry out one’s intentions (39) / decision / conclusion (141)
devastating - ( dev uh stay ting ) - 21, 74 - overwhelming / overpowering / ruinous / fatal / lethal / causing or capable of causing death or total destruction
development -( dih vel up munt )- 36, 60, 91, 98, 114 developments - 135
- growth / progress / creation / steady improvement / a progression from a simpler or lower to a more advanced, mature, or complex form or stage
deviates - ( dee vee ates ) - 130 - strays / varies / turns / changes course
deviation - ( dee vee ay shun ) - 146 s -( ...shunz )- 146 - departure / abnormality / deviant behavior / departure from what is prescribed or expected
devices -( deh vice iz )-100 - methods / practices / means / tricks / techniques
devote- ( deh vote ) - 43, 120, 150 - dedicate / commit / apply / deeply involve
devoted - ( deh voh tid ) - 17, 74, 124, 129, 162 - dedicated / committed
devotion - ( deh voh shun ) - 98, 112, 118
- commitment / affection and dedication / religious observance or prayer ( 98 )
devour -( deh vow er )- 49 - eat up / feast on / consume / destroy / devastate
devout - ( deh vowl’t ) - 32
- devoted to religion or to religious obligations / “God fearing” / pious / devoted
dictated - ( dik tate id / dik tay tid ) - 12, 174 - ordered / commanded / ruled
dictator -( dik tay tur )-133 - ruler / one who rules absolutely and often harshly
dilemma -( deh lem uh )- 17,22,25,28,103,142,152 s -( … uz )- 87, 125
- something to be dealt with / difficult, worrisome, or uncertain situation /
problem / predicament / difficulty / crisis / jam / puzzle / concern / mess / a
situation in which a choice must be made between alternative courses of action
din -( din )-178 - noise / loud and perhaps wearily repetitious voices or sounds
diplomatic - ( dip luh mat ik ) - 168
- using a manner of speech intended to soften or avoid offense / tactful
directive -( dih rek tiv )- 132,173 s -(… tiv’z )- 12 - order / law / command
director -( dih rek tur )- 158,177 s - 132 - manager / leader / head / official
disagreeable -( dis uh gree uh bul )- 91 - unpleasant / offensive
disappointed - (dis uh poyn tid ) - 115 - unhappy / frustrated / discontented
disappointingly -(dis uh poyn ting lee )-113- in a way not up to expectations
disastrous -( dih zas trus / dih sas trus )- 53,164 - terrible / extremely bad
disciplinarians - ( dis uh pluh nair ee unz ) - 12, 174 - forces providing or insuring discipline or self control / those who teach, correct, train, insure order or self-control, by using punishment for failure to follow certain rules or laws
discipline -( dis uh plin )- 6, 38, 172 - practice ( 6 ) / self-control / restraint / controlled behavior / instruction / training / penalties or punishments for failures or wrongs done ( 38 ) / ( from the text: - page 172 “…enforce obedience to necessary rules or regulations?” ( 172 ) [ see also self-discipline ( 52 ) ]
disciplines - ( dis uh plinz ) - 91 - efforts to follow a set of rules or ideals
disclose -( dis cloze )- 52,70 s -( dis clo ziz )- 175 - expose / reveal /
make known something previously unknown or kept secret / tell in confidence
disclosure - ( dis cloze yur ) - 85, 86 s - (… yurz ) - 47, 83, 186
- something uncovered or revealed that was previously unknown / the act of admitting, revealing, or uncovering something / a revelation / see revelation
discolored -( dis color’d )- 80 - affected or changed in an undesirable way
disconcerting -( dis kun surt ing )- 103 - troubling / disturbing / upsetting
discontented - (dis kun ten tid ) - 118 - unhappy / frustrated / displeased
discord - ( dis kord ) - 99 - lack of agreement, tension, or bitter conflict,
among persons, groups or things
discouraged -( dis kur idj’d )- 91, 111, 113 - made less hopeful or confident
discouragement -( dis kur idj munt )- 85 - being less hopeful or without hope
discretion -( dih skresh un )- 8,84 - good judgment / careful thinking / wisdom
disenchanted -( dis en chan tid )-167- discontented / unhappy / disillusioned
disillusioned - ( dis uh looz shun’d ) - 5 - those who suffer disillusionment
disillusionment - ( dis uh loozshun munt ) - 43, 114, 115
- disappointment / lacking contentment or satisfaction / frustration / made free
from false belief / to be freed or deprived of illusion / disenchanted
dismal -( diz mul )-47 - gloomy / depressive / dreary / dreadful / dull / foolish
dismay -( dis may )-66 - concern / distress / discomfort / alarm / uneasiness
dismayed -( dis may’d )- 144 - troubled / flustered / distressed / concerned /
disturbed / worried / agitated / made to feel anxious or uneasy
disobedience -( dis uh bee dee unts )- 174 - defiance / disobeying / rebellion
dispelled -( dis pell’d )- 167 - driven away or off as if by scattering / dispersed
displaced - ( dis place’d ) - 29 - took the place of / replaced / substituted
dispose -( dis poze )- 69 - ( …dispose of… ) - attend to / get rid of / deal with
disposed -( dis poze’d )-168 - inclined / in a willing or receptive frame of mind
disposition -( dis puh zish un )- 45 - usual state of mind or emotions / mood or temperament / tendency / one’s emotional, intellectual, and moral qualities
dispute -( deh spyoot / dis pyuut )- 66 s - 191 - argue / debate / question
disputed - ( dis pyuu tid ) - 63 - debated / argued / challenged
dissenters -( deh sen turz )-148 - people who disagreed or withheld approval
dissolution -( dis uh loo shun )- 174 - death / destruction / death by division
distilling - ( dis til ing ) - 157 - alcoholic beverage making / brewing
distinguish -( dis ting wish )- 89 - set apart / define as being different / raise in importance / make noticeable or different / tell one from the other / contrast
distinguished - ( dis ting qwisht ) - 123, 124, 181 - advanced / elevated /
honored / set apart / recognized / dignified in conduct or appearance / eminent
distorted - ( deh stort id ) - 104, 124 - distorted / exaggerated / warped / mislead / perverted / misrepresented / confused / incorrectly represented
distraught - ( deh strot ) - 162 - hopeless / distressed / despairing / crazed
distressing -( deh stress ing )-56 - troubling / disturbing / painful / tormenting
distressingly - ( deh stress ing lee ) - 117,143,185 - troubling / disturbingly
distressingly acute - ( deh stress ing lee uh kyoot ) - 117
- disturbingly severe / seriously demanding urgent attention / extremely painful
disturbance - ( deh stur bunts ) - 41, 47, 52, 76 - mental or emotional unbalance or disorder / something that disturbs or the act of disturbing
disturbed -( deh sturb’d )- 47, 81, 90, 105, 148 - upset / troubled mentally or emotionally / distressed / offended / troubled / annoyed / angered / unsettled
disturbing -( deh stur bing )-73 - troubling / mentally or emotionally upsetting
divert - ( deh / die vurt ) - 11,155,165,190 - turn / block / distract / redirect
diverted - ( deh / die vur tid ) - 28
- turned away from / caused to change / distracted
dividend - ( div eh dend ) - 58 - bonus / benefit / unexpected gain / advantage
divine - ( deh vine ) - 109, 137
- godlike / relating to, from, or being the expression of a deity (god or goddess)
divine paradox - ( deh vine pair uh dox ) - 109 - godlike mystery or puzzle /
( paradox - a seemingly contradictory statement that may nonetheless be true )
doeth - ( doo uth ) - 75 - does ( third person singular present tense of ‘do’ )
domestic -( duh mes tik )- 9,103,113,120,153 - family, home, or household
dominate -( dom uh nate )-42,81,115,124 - control / rule / command / master
dominated - ( dom uh nay tid ) - 129 - controlled / ruled / commanded
dominating -( dom uh nay ting )- 53, 116 - controlling / ruling / commanding
domination - ( dom uh nay shun ) - 9, 44, 117 - control / power / dominion /
rule / mastery or power over others / the right and power to govern or judge
donor's -( doe nurz )- 161 - the son of the one who gave the hospital / giver
dope addiction - 144, 155 - narcotics addiction / drug addiction
doubt -( dout )- 21, 26, 45, 60, 93, 97, 99, 153, 158 - question / uncertainty /
distrust / disbelief / to be undecided, uncertain, or lacking in confidence
doubted -( dout id )- 109,148 - questioned / were uncertain about / see doubt
doubter -( dout ur )-109- one who questions or is uncertain about / see doubt
doubters - ( dowt urz ) - 23,181 - people who question or are uncertain
Dr. Silkworth - 151 - the attending physician during Bill Wilson’s “detox” at Towns Hospital in New York ( 1934 ). Dr. William D. Silkworth or “Silky”
as Bill would come to call him, was a significant influence and contributor to
A.A. / See ‘The Doctors Opinion’ chapter in 'The Big Book' of A.A. /
( Numerous books and articles are available about Dr. William D. Silkworth. )
dramatic - ( druh mat ik ) - 55, 141
- striking / forceful in effect or highly emotional
- reminding one of an act or of an emotionally stirring stage performance
- speaking or behaving in an artificial way to make an impression
dramatize -( dram uh tyze )-59- be theatrical / build up / color / see dramatic
drastic -( dras tik )- 114 - severe / extreme / radical / major / very significant
drawing account -136 - similar to a checking or savings account / an account in which money for business and/or personal expenses is made available
dreaded - ( dred id ) - 85, 122 - feared
drink - ( for page 139 usage only ) - water / body of water / sea
drive - 42, 65, 135 - push / force / move / motivate / urge / stimulate /
compel / control / force to act or think in a certain way / move to action
drive by mandate - ( … man date ) - 135
- push or force by demand, order, or law
drives - 6, 49, 65, 124, 165 - forces / group efforts ( 165 )
( Psychology: A strong motivating tendency or instinct, especially of sexual
or aggressive origin, that prompts activity toward a particular end. / An urgent,
basic, or instinctual need / a motivating physiological condition of an organism )
driver - 143 - see power driver
drunk - 44, 51, 86, 88, 135, 143, 144, 151, 152, 168, 170, 185, 187
drunks - 133, 136, 137, 147, 148, 152, 156, 163
- past participle of drink… as in drink, drank, drunk
- drank alcoholic beverages / drank to excess, uncontrollably, or “alcoholically”
- physically and/or mentally impaired from drinking alcohol or alcoholic drinks
- a period of drinking alcoholic beverages to the point of intoxication
- one who is habitually drunk ( alcoholic/s ) ( drunkard/s ) ( problem drinker/s )
drunk farm - 170 - ( see farm and farms for other page numbers )
- slang. - “to fetch the farm” = to be ordered to infirmary diet and treatment.
- (1900- Pall Mall Gazette ) The ‘farm’ in prison language is a synonym for the hospital. To ‘fetch the farm’ was slang for getting around the doctor.
- the book text clearly suggests simply a place where alcoholics are cared for
which may, or may not, include a traditional rural farm or farm-like setting
dry - 61,90,144,147,158,185 - free from drinking alcoholic beverages /
restrained from drinking / abstinent / sober / sobriety // There are those who
suggest a difference between ‘dry’ and ‘sober’ which is likely an outgrowth of
the term “dry benders” on page 90. There is no distinction found in the 12n12
text or the first 164 pages of the ‘Big Book of A.A.’ There is a mention in the
Big Book Story - ‘A Five-Time Loser Wins’ - Pg. 462 ( 3rd Ed. Referenced ) //
- ( Pg. 158 ) - one usage of the simple meaning: lacking liquid or moisture //
- ( Pg. 147 ) - …others “dry.” - suggestive of drys / see drys and wets
drys -( drize )-158 - supporters of Prohibition ( Prohibition was the period 1920-1933 when the 18th Amendment of the constitution forbidding the manufacture and sale of alcoholic beverages was in force in the United States
( also see wets )
dry benders - (… ben durz ) - 90 - see emotional dry benders and bender
dry camp-158- those who support ‘temperance’ or non-use of alcoholic drinks
dubious -( doo be us / do be iss )-106,152- doubtful / uncertain / questionable
dubiously - ( doo be us lee / do be iss lee ) - 132 - doubtfully / suspiciously
duplicate - ( do pleh kit / do pleh kate ) - 147 - copy / recreate / repeat
durability - ( dur uh bil uh tee ) - 120 - permanence / stability / strength
durable -( dur uh bull )-112- lasting / stable / constant / dependable / enduring
duty-bound - ( doo tee bound ) - 155 - morally or socially obligated / held, directed, or compelled by a moral or social responsibility
eager -( e gur )- 62,109,121,143 - enthusiastic / intent / determined / expectant
- strong desire to achieve / intensely interested and impatiently expectant
eagerly -( e gur lee )- 111 - enthusiastically / intently / ambitiously / see eager
earnest -( ur nist )- 72,104,144 - serious / determined / solemn / no-nonsense
earnestly -( ur nist lee )- 34,86,131 - seriously / with deep thought and intent
earnestness -( ur nist nuss )-103- deep sincerity / seriousness / serious intent
ebbed -( eb’d )-117 - moved backward / faded / subsided / receded / lessened
Eddie Rickenbacker-( ... Rik un bak ur )-13 - Edward Vernon Rickenbacker
(1890-1973) - American aviator and honored World War I flying ace. From 1932 he
was an executive with several airlines. During visits to air bases in the Pacific theater during World War II, he and others suffered 24 days afloat at sea after their B-17
had to ditch in the ocean. ( Full story is very fascinating. )
He served as President of Eastern Air Lines from 1938 to 1959.
editorials -( ed ih tor e ulz )- 165 - newspaper and/or magazine publications / media publications, stories, reviews, releases, reports, features, articles
editors - ( ed ih turz ) - 133, 183 - those who prepare, create, adapt, correct, or revise media materials such as newspaper and magazine articles
effective -( ih fek tiv )-16,178- useful / able to produce a desired result / skillful
effectiveness - ( ih fek tiv nuss ) - 16, 34, 178 - ability to produce a desired or
expected result / usefulness / helpfulness / productiveness / capability
ego - ( ee go ) - 6, 46, 55 - [ Latin: I ] - sense of self / self image / the sense of self or one’s identity as separate from the world and other selves / that part of the mind which is conscious and most immediately controls thought and behavior, and which is most in touch with external reality // - ‘The 12 & 12’ and ‘The Big Book’ of A.A. is usually addressing exaggerated forms of the sense of self or ego as in a disproportionate (unbalanced - not matching reality - untrue) idea of the importance of oneself and a belief that one has powers and abilities far above the normal or above those actually possessed. ( The works of psychologists Sigmund Freud, Carl Jung, and William James were a significant social influence during the early 1900’s and later. - See “Big Book” - Pg. 26… )
ego deflation -( ego dih flay shun)-40,55 - reducing self importance / see ego
egos - ( ee goes / e go’z ) - 55 - plural spelling of ego / see ego
ego-driven individualists - ( ee go driv un in duh vidj oo lists ) - 146
- people who believe their individual interests are more important than the interests of a group and are moved to action on this belief, sometimes compulsively or obsessively so. / see ego
ego-feeding - 30, 163 - self …gratifying, supporting, sustaining / see ego
egomania - ( ee go may nee uh ) - 53 - obsessive preoccupation with ourselves / total occupation of the mind with oneself / [ ego + mania -- excessive enthusiasm or desire + for self centered aims ] / also see ego
ego-puncturing - ( ee go punk chur ing ) - 7, 74 - making holes in an inflated, untrue, or exaggerated sense of one’s own importance / see ego
egotism -( ee guh tiz um / eg uh tiz um )- 36 - inflated sense of one’s own importance / unduly high opinion of one’s own abilities or worth / see ego
Einstein's th***y of relativity - 35 - Albert Einstein’s special th***y of relativity expressed as E=mc² - Energy = mass times c or the speed of light
( 186,000 miles per second ) squared ( squared = multiplied by itself ).
- A concept that measurements change when considered by observers in various states of motion.
elated - ( eh lay tid ) - 92, 111 - extremely happy / proud and overjoyed
elder statesmen - ( el dur states mun ) - 10,135 - textual definition found within sentence it is used / experienced older person acting as an advisor
elders -( el durz )- 135,142,143,144,147,148,177 - older influential members
eliminate -( eh lim uh nate )-65,88 -ting-117 -tion-50 - get rid of / remove
eloquence - ( el uh kwuns / el uh kwunts ) -148, 151
- persuasive expression / effective communication / artful public speaking
elsewhere -( else where )- 91,148 - somewhere else / at or in another place
elude -( eh lood )-50- escape / slip away from / fail to be fulfilled or realized by
elusive -( eh loo siv / eh loo ziv )-94 - slippery / evasive / vague / unrealistic /
- hard to pin down / difficult to perceive, comprehend, describe, or capture
embarrassing -( em bare us ing )-60,78- distressing / humiliating / shaming /
- causing one to feel self-consciously shamed, humiliated, or wounded in pride
embattled - ( em bat uld ) - 176 - plagued with controversy, criticism, and attackers / prepared for or engaged in battle
embedded - ( em bed id ) - 165 - fixed / established / enclosed / implanted
embody - ( em bod ee ) - 156 - give form to / demonstrate / contain / show
emerge - ( em urj / eh merge ) - 146 - come up / appear / arise / get out
emerged -( em urged )- 16,161 - came into being / formed / developed / arose
emergence -( em urge unts )-26-appearance / coming into view / showing up
emerging -( em urge ing ) - 62 - arising / coming into being / breaking through
eminent -( em uh nunt )-122 -outstanding / well known / high in rank or quality
emotion - ( e motion / eh moe shun ) - 88, 94 - any disturbance of mind,
feeling, passion; any forceful, intense, or excited mental state. / a mental
‘feeling’ or ‘affection’ as pleasure or pain, desire or dislike, surprise, hope or
fear, etc. ), as distinguished from conscious reasoning-/-thinking or
voluntary-/-chosen states of consciousness. / a strong feeling / an intense,
agitated, or disturbed mental state arising from within rather than through
conscious effort and often accompanied by changes in bodily functions / the
part of consciousness that involves feeling. / ( some relate: energy in motion )
[ Emotions seem to be an energizing force behind responses to internal or
external perceptions, real or imagined. Because of their destructive potential,
extremes and deviations of negative emotions are the primary points of focus
within the text of “The Big Book” and “The 12 and 12” - Author ]
emotions - 44,47,62,78,80,90,97 - more than one emotion / see emotion
emotional -( eh moe shuh nul / em o shun ul )- 6,8,37,38,41,42,43,51,52,
77,79,80,88,90,91,94,99,102,103,104,106,114,115,11 6,117,119,139,169
- connected with, based upon, or appealing to, the feelings or passions /
easily affected by emotion / characterized by the capacity for emotion /
showing emotion / stimulating or intending to arouse emotions - see emotion
emotional balance -8,88,102-an absence of extremes in feeling or emotions
emotional binges - ( … bin juz ) - 38 - periods of excessive or unrestrained
and self-indulgent ( self-serving / self-gratifying ) emotions
emotional “dry benders” - 90 - within the textual context Bill is referring to
“an emotional jag” - 90 - [ a period of time in an emotional state of “justified”
anger ] while one is ‘dry’ [ not drinking ]. Some have come to refer to this as a
“dry drunk” . The text stresses the dangers and pitfalls of resentments, anger,
bursts of temper, grudges, jealousy, envy, self-pity, and hurt pride. [ “…stormy
emotions.” ] There is no direct reference to such as a “dry drunk” within the
first 164 pages of the “Big Book” or anyplace within ‘The 12 and 12’.
emotional gusts - 169 - outbursts of feeling / varying expressions of feeling
emotional handicap - 119 - unfavorable or flawed feelings / feelings that
would act as a disadvantage, hindrance, strain, or disability
emotional hangover - 8, 88 - The text definition that follows usage on Pg. 88 :
“…the direct result of yesterday’s and sometimes today’s excesses of negative
emotion - anger, fear, jealousy, and the like.” / see emotional dry bender
emotional insecurity - 6, 52 - feeling unsure, unsteady, uncertain, unsafe,
or lacking in self-confidence / plagued by anxiety / lacking emotional stability
emotional jag - 90 - see emotional “dry benders”
emotional security -42,43,51,80,115,116 - feeling sure, steady, certain, safe,
or self-confident / also see emotionally secure and emotional insecure
emotional sobriety -(…suh bry uh tee )-106 - also see sober and sobriety
- feelings that are reasonable in relation to that which stimulates them /
feelings that are without extreme qualities of fantasy, instability, or prejudice
emotional stability - (…stuh bil ih tee ) - 116 - feeling secure, protected,
cared for, peaceful, and possessing an inner strength ( text based definition ) /
feelings that are reliable and able to withstand pressure, force, or stress
emotional turmoil - (… turm oil / tur moy ul )- 94 - emotional pains ( textual )
- feelings of extreme confusion, chaos, agitation, bafflement, or restlessness
emotional twists -117- ( Text Page 80 - "…our emotions violent twists…" )
- emotional distortions or alterations / feelings that could be described as
twisted, distorted, perverted, complicated, entangled, or confused
emotional wringer - (… ring ur ) - 99 - [ from text: “…the emotional wringer.” ]
[ ‘to put through the wringer’ = to try or test a person ] - distressing or painful
feelings resulting from hardships in life, and often serving as a test of character
emotionalism -( eh moe shu nul izm )- 32 - excessive or improper display of
emotion / relying on or the over valuation of emotion / the habit of forming
unhealthy or dreadful emotion / weakly giving way to emotion / see emotion
emotionally - ( eh moe shu nul ee ) - 92, 116, 123 - in an emotional manner,
with reference to emotions /( see definitions in word combinations below )
emotionally ill - 92 - lacking in helpful, healthy, positive, or stable feelings
emotionally secure 116- [ text: “…to feel emotionally secure…” ]- to feel safe,
sure, comfortable, and self-confident / see emotional security / insecurity
emotionally sensitive -123 - easily irritated or angered / quick to take offense
emphasis - ( em fuh siss ) - 76, 89 - stress / special attention / special effort
emphasizes - ( em fuh sie zuz ) - 98 - stresses / gives special attention to
enable -( eh nay bul )- 15,76,103,134 - allow / permit / make an opportunity for
enables -( eh nay bulz )- 89 - makes an opportunity for / makes it possible for
enabled - ( eh nay bul’d ) - 66, 108, 109 - made it possible for / permitted
encounter -( n count ur )- 38, 111,114 - struggle / confrontation / brush ( 38 )
- meet / see / confront / come up against / come upon / discover ( 111, 114 )
encourage -( n kur idj / n kur adj )- 46 - give support to / promote / develop
encouraging - ( n kur idj ing / n kur adj ing / n kur eh jing ) - 105, 182
- hopeful / promising / reassuring / inspiring / confidence building
end - 7,26,52,69,71,72,79,79,82,89,107,114,137,144,183,1 92 - finish / limit /
stopping point / last part / what one intends to do or achieve / aim / also see ends - ends with the means - open end - sticky ends - to the/this end
endorse - ( n dorce / n dorse ) - 11,155,157 - support / approve / to give approval of or support to, especially by public statement or written document
endorsement -( n dorce munt )-17,157,190 s-(159)-to endorse -see endorse
endowed -( n dow’d )- 161 - financed / funded / provided / presented as a gift
ends - ( endz… ) - 148 - outcomes / conclusions / situations / circumstances
ends with the means - 71 - ( see the following sentence in the text )
- the aims or goals with the methods or ways to reach the aims or goals
endurance - ( n dur unts ) - 38 - withstanding hardship or stress / stamina
endure -( n dyou’r / n dur )- 33,38 - tolerate / bear / take / put up with / accept
endured - ( n dur’d ) - 107, 119 - tolerated / suffered patiently / put up with
enduring - ( n dur ing ) - 22 - lasting / sustaining
enforce - ( n force ) - 132,172,176 - impose / cause to be carried out / invoke
engaged -( n gayj’d )- 34 - involved / occupied / operating / working / devoted
engulfed - ( n gulf’d ) - 143 - overflowed / overwhelmed / flooded
enhance -( n hants )-119 - add to / complement / increase in value / augment
enterprise -( n tur prize )- 11,155,157,170 s - ( … uz ) - 120,157,170
- commercial organization / business / institution / interests ( 11, 157, 170 )
- projects / undertakings / ventures / efforts / pursuits / interests ( 120 )
enthusiasm -( n thoo ze az um )- 137,143,182 - intensity of feeling / passion
enthusiastically -( n thoo ze az tik lee )-27-spiritedly / passionately / intently
entitled - (n tih tuld ) - 63, 90 - allowed / permitted / given the right or claim
entity -( n tih tee )-147,190 - discrete unit / being / creation / structure / body
entreat - ( n treet ) - 133 - beg / ask / insistently or urgently request or ask
entrenched -( n trench’d )- 175 - deeply established / embedded / firmly fixed
envies - ( n veez ) - 39 - is jealous of / holds envy for or towards / see envy
envious - ( n v us ) - 49 - jealous / feeling or showing envy / see envy
envision -( n vizshun )-100-form a mental image of / imagine / visualize / see
envisions -( n vizshunz )- 100 - forms a mental imagine of / conceives / sees
envy - ( n v ) - 8, 48, 66, 67, 90 - resentment or discontent aroused by and in connection with desire for the possessions, advantages, or qualities of another
episodes -( ep eh soadz )- 84 - happenings / events / incidents / occurrences
equilibrium -( e kwuh lib re um / ek wuh… )-73-mental or emotional balance
era -( air uh )-165-age / the period of time when something or someone exists
erected - ( eh rek tid ) - 28 - created / developed / built / constructed
erratic -( eh rat ik )-18,47,130 - deviating from the usual in conduct or opinion
- inconsistent / unstable / unpredictable / haphazard / changeable / unreliable
erring -( air ing )- 118, 132 - offending / straying / making errors or mistakes
Eskimo - ( s kuh mo ) - 169 - member of the peoples inhabiting the Arctic coastal areas of North America, Greenland, and northern Siberia
essays - ( s ayz / eh sayz ) - 15
- short writings representing the author’s personal view on a subject
essence -( ess unts )- 13,95,101,172 - most important or central part or idea
esteem - ( eh steem ) - 92 - respect / favorable regard / positive opinion
estimate -( es tuh mate )-68 - measure / evaluate / appraise / assess / gauge
ethics - ( eth iks ) - principles regarding right conduct or moral values
ethical - ( eth eh kul ) - 133, 136, 137 - moral / honorable / upright / honest /
- in agreement with accepted principles of right and wrong / see ethics
evading - ( ev ay ding ) - 51 - avoiding / escaping / ignoring
evaporate -( ev ap uh rate )-75 s-91 - disappear /s / dissolve /s / vanish /s
evasion -( ev ay shun )- 85 -making excuses to avoid responsibility / dodges
evidence -( ev eh dunts )-54,97,105,160- proof / demonstration / confirmation
evident - ( ev eh dunt ) - 59,65,92 - clearly seen / apparent / obvious / plain
evolution - ( ev uh loo shun / ee vuh loo shun ) - 25
- change / gradual development / advancement
- the th***y that groups of organisms change with the passage of time
exact nature - 6, 55 - precise type / completely truthful description /
- specific and factual qualities, properties, kinds, and characteristics
exaggerate -( eg zaj uh rate )- 59, 82 - enlarge / magnify / amplify / overstate
exaggeration - ( eg zaj uh ray shun ) - 180 - overstatement / overestimation
examination - ( eg zam uh nay shun ) - 8,53,8 - inspection / review / survey
examine -( eg zam in )-36,94- consider / inspect / look at / question / appraise
exceed - ( ek seed ) - 6,42,65 - go beyond / overrun / pass / overstep / violate
exception - ( ek sep shun ) - 57,105,173,187 s - ( … shunz ) - 85,90,120
- variation / question / challenge / difference / opposition
excesses -( ek sess uz / ek ses suz )-49,66,88 - surpluses / extravagances / overindulgences / going beyond what is needed, wanted, or appropriate
excessive -( ek sess iv )- 45, 67, 86 - too much / beyond a reasonable limit
exchanging - ( eks chanj ing ) - 122
- trading / giving and receiving / giving in return for something received
exclaim -( ek sklaim )-132,145,174 - say / speak out suddenly or emotionally
exclusively - ( ek skloo siv lee ) - 72
- completely / solely / alone / without any other
excursions -( ek skur zshunz )-67,186- trips / journeys / deviations / tangents
exempt - ( eg zempt ) - 42 - freed / spared / relieved / let off / excused
exercised - ( ek sur sized ) - 149 - used / practiced / put into play
exert -( eg zurt )- 40,42,49,124- to put oneself to strenuous effort (49 and all )
- [ apply / employ ( 40, 42 ) ] [ throw / put forth / employ ( 124 ) ]
exertion - ( eg zur shun ) - 6, 40, 105 - great effort / application / see exert
exertion of will - 105 - see will / also see exert and exertion
exhaustive -( eg zost/zalst iv )- 7,79,122 - thorough / intensive / careful /
- taking into careful consideration all aspects with painstaking accuracy
exhibitionism - ( ek suh bish uh niz um ) - 46
- deliberately behaving so as to attract attention / showy or theatrical behavior
exhilarating -( eg zil uh rate ing )- 29,85- stimulating / energizing / refreshing
existence - ( eg ziss tuns / …tunts ) - 28,42,64,121,186 - being / presence
- the fact or state of existing / continued being / occurrence / actuality / life
expanse - ( ek spance ) - 147 - wide open amount or extent / stretch / space
expectations - ( ek spek tay shunz ) -156 - hoped for or anticipated things
- things expected / prospects / also see prospects )
expediters -( ek speh dite urz )-175 - those who speed up or ease progress
expel - ( ek spell ) - 15,32,57,64,172,173 - drive out / force to leave / eject
expelled -( ek spell’d )-129 - thrown out / deprived of membership / see expel
expenditure -( ek spen duh chur )-177 - expense / financial transaction / cost
explicit -( ek splis it )-15,103 - clearly expressed or defined / precise / specific
exploitation - ( ek sploy tay shun ) - 11
- using another person or group for selfish of unethical purposes / selfish use
exploited -( ek sployt id / ik sploi tid )- 161,169 - used / used for selfish or
unethical purposes / taken advantage of unfairly / manipulated / abused
extemporaneously - ( ek stem puh ray nuh us lee ) - 57 - with little or no
preparation / unrehearsed / unprepared / without forethought / ad-lib / offhand
extensive -( ek sten siv )-81 - far-reaching / great in extent, range, or amount
extent -( ek stent )-52,81,92,98,104,117,125,181 - degree / measure / amount
extinction -( ek stingk shun )- 45 - death / absolute destruction / being extinct
extinguish - ( ek sting gwish ) - 50 - put an end to / put out / bring to an end
extolled - ( ek stol’d ) - 143 - praised highly / honored / magnified / glorified
extramarital - ( ek struh merit ul / …mair eh tul ) - 86 - adulterous / violation
of marriage vows / sexual intercourse with other than one’s marriage partner
extravagance -( ek strav uh gunts )-51- being extravagant / see extravagant
extravagant - (ek strav uh gunt ) - 51 - excessive or unrestrained in spending
extricate - ( ek stra kate ) - 80 - pull out / untangle / free or remove / release
extricated - ( ek stra kay tid ) - 118 - pulled out / untangled / freed / removed
exult -( eg zult )-66 - take pleasure / delight / feel or express joy or satisfaction
facility - ( fuh sil uh tee ) - 11, 155 - something created to serve a particular function such as a hospital or clubhouse / ( Pg. 157 - textual definition: “…in
no circumstances could we endorse any related enterprise, …” )
factor -( fak tur )- 89, 181 - fact / circumstance / detail / ingredient / part
fair-minded - 91 - just / fair / impartial / not prejudiced / “fair and square”
faith - 5,9,25,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,38,43,62,70,72,99,1 01,103,112,114,
121,131,153 - belief not resting on logical proof or material evidence / belief /
mental acceptance of the truth of something / reliance / absolute certainty in the
trustworthiness of another / religion / those who accept and practice a particular religious belief / a system of religious belief / a set of beliefs or principles
fallacy - ( fal uh see ) - 31 - error / falseness / untruth / invalid reasoning
fallacies - ( fal uh seez ) - 116 - mistaken ideas / unsound character traits
fall by the wayside - 74 - fail to continue / give up
fallen women -140- women who slipped into moral decline or deterioration
fallible-( fal uh bul )-115 - capable of making mistakes / liable to err or offend
false pride - 123 - see pride with it’s expanded group and definitions
falteringly - ( falt ur ing lee ) - 98 - hesitantly / unsteadily / see falters
falters -( fal turz )-82 - is unsteady or uncertain in determination, purpose, or action
as from loss of courage or confidence / indecisive / hesitant / waver
fancied - ( fan seed ) - 28, 82 - imagined / dreamed / created in ones mind
fantasies - ( fan tuh seez ) - 92 - dreams / imaginings / mental images
far removed - 174 - long ago taken away / separated a long time
fare forth-116- make ones way forward / get by or make do later / go forward
farm - 170 farms - 167, 170 - see drunk farms
fascinating - ( fass uh nay ting ) - 7, 77 - greatly interesting / very pleasing
fashioned - ( fash und ) - 117 - made / shaped / formed / configured
fatal - ( fay tul ) - 7, 23, 24, 64, 69, 104, 114 - deadly /
- something that causes or can cause death or horrible consequences
fault - ( falt ) - 52,77,79,91,103 s - 24,63 - error, defect, flaw, mistake /
minor offense or misdeed / a weakness of character, especially a minor one /
-( at fault )- blame / being the cause of, or responsible for, an offense or error
favor -( fay vur )- 35,79,95,157 - in support of ( 35 ) / regard / opinion ( 79 ) /
favoritism / unfair favorable opinion ( 95 ) support / regard / approval ( 157 )
- an attitude of positive regard, approval, support, preference, or agreement
fear - 7,10,11,37,44,49,51,55,59,75,76,79,88,93,95,103,12 2,123,131,140,149,
167,169,184,186 - a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the expectation
or presence of danger / the emotion of pain or uneasiness caused by the sense
of impending danger, or by the prospect of some possible evil / concern for the
safety of a person or thing / feeling there is reason for alarm, dread, fright, terror,
horror, or panic / negative imagination / projecting negative experiences
fearful - 94, 123, 168 - full of fear / with, in, or experiencing fear / see fear
fearless - 6,42,43,49,56,107 fearlessly - 46 - without fear / bravely
feats - 123 - achievements / extraordinary deeds, actions, or skills
fellowship - 10,12,15,16,17,118,129,130,143,150,152,157,160,165 ,167,171,
175,176,180,183 - sharing similar interests, ideals, or experiences / friendship /
the companionship or close association of people in a friendly setting, on equal terms, and sharing similar interests or aims / association / organization / society
fervor -( fur vur )- 22 - intensity of emotion / enthusiasm / passionate devotion
festering - ( fest ur ing ) - 77 - increasing in irritation or decline / deteriorating
festers -( fest urz )-53-becomes an increasing source of irritation or poisoning
fetch ourselves up sharply - 78 - bring or raise ourselves to a higher level or position very quickly / bring ourselves to a halt or stopping place very quickly
fevered mind -( fee vur’d mind )- 144 - excited / crazed / intensely emotional
fine-mesh -140 - a barrier with small openings which serves as a filter or snare
firm - 21,104,133 - strong and sure / securely fixed / steady / determined / solid
firm - 86,180 firms - 180 firm’s - 180 - company / commercial organization
first-rater -122- ( first-rate ) - ahead of all others in quality, rank, or importance
fitful - ( fit ful ) - 123 - periodic / irregular / occasional / sporadic / intermittent
flaws -( flawz )-50,56,73,80,95,108 -see character flaws - personality flaws
- defects / faults / weaknesses / unfavorable circumstances or personal traits
flaws of character - 108 see - flaws & character flaws
flier -( fly ur )-[ into the realm of spirit ]-101- a first step / an introduction / a venture or undertaking / an investment in hopes of making a quick profit ( Bill was involved in stock trading; could be his usage of trading language here. )
fling - 156 - try / go / brief trial / time spent energetically involved in an activity
flourished - ( flur ish’d ) - 177 - thrived / grew well / blossomed / prospered
foggy -( fog ee / fawg ee )- 50,152- cloudy / blurred / unclear / hazy / indefinite
folding money - 163 - paper money / paper currency
foolproof -148- error free / reliable / prevention against human error or misuse
foregather -( 4 gahth ur )-145- gather together / meet one another / assemble
foresaw -( 4 saw )- 178 - saw beforehand / anticipated / envisioned / predicted
foresee - ( 4 see ) - 141 - know in advance / envision / anticipate / predict
foreword - ( 4 word ) - 5,15,16,17,18,143,184 - ( word before ) - introductory note /
lead in / a short section of preliminary remarks / preface / introduction
formerly - ( 4 mur lee ) - 74 - once / previously / at an earlier time / earlier
formidable -( 4 mid uh bul / 4 mih du bul )-28- difficult to overcome or defeat
forth - 48, 55, 116, 182 - forward / forward in time, order, place / out into view
( back and forth - backward and forward / to and fro / from side to side )
forthright - ( forth rite ) - 86 - direct / straightforward / honest / open / clear
forthwith -( forth with )-181- without delay / right away / immediately / at once
fortified - ( for tuh fye’d ) - 135 - strengthened / made stronger or more firm
fortify - ( for tuh fye ) - 82 - strengthen / encourage / reinforce / secure
fortitude - ( fort uh tood / for tuh tood ) - 114 - strength of mind / courage
fortunate- ( for chuh nit ) - 37, 99 - lucky / well off
fortunately - ( for chuh nit lee ) - 35 - luckily / happily
foul - ( fowl / file ) - 88 - bad / unfavorable
founded - ( found id ) - 29 - based / built / established
founder - ( found ur ) - 133, 134, 135 s - 133 - creator / originator
foundering vessel - ( found ur ing vess ul ) - 35 - sinking ship
foursquare -( 4 skwair )-153 - directly / firmly / with firm conviction / forthright
fragment - ( frag munt ) - 37,101,132 s - 37,144 - part / piece / portion / bit
frail craft -( fray ul kraft )-131- easily broken, fragile, or physically weak boat
frankly -( frank lee )-141- openly / sincerely / honestly / directly / clearly / in a
way that reveals one’s thoughts freely and honestly, perhaps even bluntly
frankness - ( frank nuss ) - 85 - honesty / openness / see frankly
fraternal charity - ( fruh tur nul chair uh tee ) - 144 - brotherly support
freeze - 152 - shut out, as by cold or unfriendly treatment / stop in progress
frustrate -( fruss trate )-36 - discourage / prevent / defeat / seriously obstruct
frustration - ( fruss tray shun ) - 44,51,52,76,103,149 - a deep, long lasting,
or recurring sense or state of insecurity, dissatisfaction, bafflement, or
discouragement as a result of unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs /
- an instance of being frustrated / something that serves to frustrate
fumbled -( fum bul’d )- 163 - awkwardly searched or sought with uncertainty
fundamental -( fun duh men tul )-52,80,108 - basic / essential / central / root
fundamentally - ( fun duh men tuh lee / fun duh men tul e )- 104 - basically
furious - ( fyur e us ) - 91 - extremely angry / raging / fierce / energetic
furors - ( fyure orz / fyore orz ) - 167
- rages / outbursts of intense excitement, indignation, disorder, anger, or fury
furthermore -( furth ur more )- 112 - in addition / additionally / also / too
futile -( few tile -or- few tul / fuut ul )-91 - useless / pointless / meaningless /
fruitless / unsuccessful / vain / having or producing no useful result or effect
garbled -( gar bul’d )- 60 - made misleading or incorrect / mixed up / distorted
gasp - 132 - breathe deeply / take in a deep breath quickly, as from shock
general - ( jen ur ul ) - 55,84 - broad / involving only the main features rather than precise details / not particular, confined, limited, or specific
general public - 164,186,192 - anyone not involved in, nor a member of, A.A.
General Service Committee - 192 - see Page 191 - Tradition Nine
General Service Conference - 4, 12, 173, … Conferences - 175
- also see The General Service Conference
General Service Board-140,148,162,168,173,182,189,191- see Pg.191-Nine
General Service Office- 18,140,148,162,168,173,182,191- see Pg.191-Nine
( Page numbers not in bold note usage in repeated notes at page bottoms. )
generate -( jen ur ate )- 49 s - 49 - create / produce / bring / give rise to
generosity -( jen uh ross uh tee )- 163 - willingness to give / acts of giving
genuine - ( jen yuh wun / …win / …wine ) - 45, 59, 72, 95, 106, 190, 192
- authentic / actual / real / true / honest / original / honestly felt or experienced
gratitude -( grat uh tood )-95- thankfulness / appreciation of benefits received
Gideon Bible -( gid e un )- 145 - a Christian Bible often placed in hotel rooms
by members of an international society known as The Gideon’s. Gideon was a
biblical Hebrew judge whose deeds are described in the OT. -‘Book of Judges’.
give me the business - 153 - give me the ‘scolding’ / give me the ‘information’
give-and-take basis -(…bay suss )- 9,116- a foundation of settling differences and disagreements with compromises and concessions / the practice of making mutual acknowledgements of points claimed in a friendly exchange of ideas
glaring -(glair ing )-48,53,66 - extremely obvious / obviously bad or offensive
gleaming - 147 - brightly shining / glowing / sparkling / glowing without a flame
glimpse -( glimps )-98,101,105,139- glance / brief but incomplete view or look
glittering -( glit ur ing )- 112 - sparkling / brilliantly shining / showy / flashy
gloated -(glow tid )-30-felt, thought, or expressed pleasure or self-satisfaction,
often with a deep-seated ill will, or desire for others to suffer humiliation or harm
gloried - ( glor eed ) - 25 - rejoiced triumphantly / glorified / honored / praised
gluttonous -( glut nuss / gluh tuh nuss )-66 - given to or marked by gluttony
gluttony -( glutun ee )-48,67- excess in eating or drinking / unrestrained greed
gnawing - ( naw ing ) - 52 - severe / intense / acute / persistently tormenting
goaded -( gode id / go did )-73 - prodded / motivated / urged / stirred to action
God's reality -97 - God’s actuality / God’s existence / God’s truth / God’s being
golf-score size -149 - size of a card used to write the score of one’s golf game
good-naturedly -(-nay churd lee )-122 - with a positive and pleasant attitude /
- in or with a positive, good-tempered, pleasant, agreeable, and friendly manner
good-sized - 122 - above average, substantial, large, or sufficient amount
goodwill - 121 - attitude of kindly and charitable interest and concern for others
gossip - ( goss up ) - 67 - worthless or baseless, often sensational and
groundless talk about others / rumor or talk of a personal or intimate nature /
( From text: Pg. 67 - …a polite form of murder by character assassination,…)
govern -( guv urn )-10,132,134,172,174,192- hold authority over / control / rule
governed - ( guv urn’d ) - 178 - see govern
grace-8,32,57,64,66,69,76,92,98,100,101,102,113,114,125, 129,146,153,177
- mercy / favor / blessing / divine love and protection given freely
- being protected or blessed by the favor of God / power granted by God
- undeserved or unmerited benefit or assistance
gradually - ( gra jul ee / graj wul ee / gra juh wul ee ) - 27, 116, 118, 122
- slowly / progressing by regular or continuous steps or degrees
graduated -( gra juh way tid / graj uh wait id )-148 - advanced or progressed
grandeur - ( gran jur / gran joor / gran d’yur ) - 58 - greatness / grandness
grandiose - ( gran dee oce / gran de ose ) - 123
- exaggerated in self-importance / arrogant / pretentious / inflated / boastful
- characterized by largeness of plan or formal stateliness; often while degrading
others / trying to present oneself as being overly important, great, or ‘grand’
- showing an exaggerated display of self-importance, magnificence, or dignity
grandiosity - ( gran dee oss it ee ) - 6,45 - being grandiose - see grandiose
grateful - 124,133,161 - thankful / appreciative / showing or feeling gratitude
gratitude ( grat uh tood- 95 - a warm sense of appreciation of kindness received, involving a feeling of goodwill towards the giver and a desire to do something in return; gratefulness / ( Gratitude urges us to repay kindness )
grave - 56 - place of burial after death 139 - serious / complex / important gravely - ( grave lee ) - 86,109 - seriously / deeply / considerably / importantly
Great guns! -158 - an exclamation / a sudden sharp outcry
[ First used by Mark Twain in his famous book ‘Huckleberry Finn’ - 1884 ]
greed - 48, 51, 66
- an excessive desire to gain or own more than what one needs or deserves
greedy - ( gree dee ) - 31, 66 - filled with greed / see greed
grim - 140 - firm / rigid / stubborn / often unreasonably firm in purpose or will
griping - ( gripe ing ) - 51 - complaining / expressing resentment
grip - 73 - hold / tight firm hold // grips - 69, 73 / see come to grips with
grooved - ( groov’d ) - 89 - a routine / a regular or standard action
gross -( groce )- 81 - obviously bad or offensive / glaring / total / insensitive
groundless -140 - unwarranted / baseless / without basis or foundation in fact
grounds -153- facts that give logical support to an assertion, claim, or proposal
group conscience -(… kon shush / kont shunts )- 10,132,134,135,138,189
( also inferred on page - 147 ) also see - conscience
- the will of the members of a meeting group as expressed by majority vote
groveling - ( grov ling / grovel ing ) - 72
- behaving in a submissive, slave-like, degrading, or overly humble manner
groveling despair - humiliating loss of all hope / submissive hopelessness
grown-up -116,120- mature / adult / mature in attitude, appearance, or outlook
grudge - ( gruj ) - 90 grudges - ( gruh juz ) - 47
- deep feeling/s of resentment, ill will, or a desire to see others suffer
grudgingly -( gruh jing lee )- 49, 74 - reluctantly / unwillingly / with resistance
guarantee -( gair un tee )-10,37,129,146,191 - promise / insure / make certain
guardian -( gar dee un )- 12,183 - protector / caretaker / keeper / manager
guidance -( gide unts )- 35,43,60,86,103,104,109,137 - leadership / direction
guilt -( gilt )- 6,39,44,45,50,59,62 - remorseful or distressing awareness of having done something wrong / responsibility or blame for an error or crime /
disapproval, disappointment, or criticism of oneself for supposed or assumed shortcoming or wrongdoing //
[ shame and guilt - it has been said, “guilt says to us, I MADE a mistake, and
shame says to us, I AM a mistake.” ] shame - a painful emotion caused by a
strong sense of guilt, embarrassment, unworthiness, dishonor, or disgrace
guns - 158 - see Great guns!
gusts - 169 - sudden violent expressions / bursts / flare-ups / outbursts
guzzling -( guz ling )- 140 - habitual excessive drinking / drinking too much
habitable - ( hab eh tuh bul ) - 167 - livable / fit to live in
habitual supposition -( huh bich yul sup uh zish un )- 160 - usual belief
habitually - (huh bich ul ee / huh bi chawul e ) - 53 - repeatedly / usually
had them cold -144 - had them captured completely, totally, absolutely
half steam - 49 - half power / half of one’s capacity for work or activity
haltingly -( hal ting lee )-68- uncertain or indecisively / unsteadily back & forth
hamlets - ( ham lits) - 131 - small towns or villages
handicap -( han de cap )- 71,119 s - 66,74 …capped - 59 - disadvantage /
disability / hindrance / unfavorable condition, circumstance, or characteristic
handsomely - ( han sum lee ) - 30, 80
- skillfully / easily / pleasingly / appropriately ( 30 ) // well / generously ( 80 )
handsomely in a walk - 30 - easily and without effort
hangover - ( hang over ) - 8,84,88,162,163 - unpleasant physical effects following heavy drinking of alcohol / ( also see - emotional hangover )
harbored -( har bur’d )- 47 - held / nourished / sheltered / nurtured / nursed
hard up - 164 - poor / poverty-stricken / with little or no money / destitute
hard-and-fast - 68 - defined, fixed, and invariable / clear and strong
harmed - 7,32,77,78,79,80,83,86,108 - textual definition: Pg. 80 - “…we might call it the result of instincts in collision, which cause physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual damage to people.” // injured or damaged physically or psychologically / the action or result of causing loss or pain
harmony - ( harm uh nee ) - 18, 93, 99, 101, 130
- agreement in opinion, sentiment, or feeling / mutual understanding / accord
harnessed -( har nuss’d )- 70 -brought under control and directed / utilized
harrowing -( hair oh ing )- 84, 139, 185 - extraordinarily painful or distressing
harvest -( har vist )- 42 - gather / plant, hunt, gather, collect and store
hastily -( hayst uh lee )-91,163- very quickly / too quickly to be correct or wise
haunt -( hawnt / hont )-121 - visit / bother / torment / come to mind continually
havoc -( hav uk )-104,161 - widespread disorder, destruction, or chaos ( 161 )
- the source of widespread disorder, destruction, confusion, or chaos ( 104 )
hazardous open end - ( haz ur duss … ) - 69, 181
- risky or dangerous condition of having no limit, duration, or amount
headlong - 40 - forceful or fast / rash / headfirst / reckless and hasty
headway - 77 - forward movement / progress / advancement / progression
heartily -( hart uh lee )- 31, 94 - completely / thoroughly / enthusiastically
heated-176 - angry / impassioned / controversial / inflamed with intense feeling
hemorrhage - ( hem ur ij ) - 135 - bleed ( relating to text reference “bleeding deacon” ) / to experience a rapid loss of something considered valuable
hence -( hents )- 12,59,167,176,189,190 - for this reason / therefore
henceforth - ( hents 4th ) - 165 - from this time / from now forward
heritage - ( hair uh tij ) - 191 - tradition / legacy / inheritance / birthright
--- “spiritual heritage” - spiritual roots, tradition, inheritance, or legacy
hesitantly -( hez eh tunt lee )-152 - after a pause / with delay and uncertainty
hierarchy - ( hire ark ee ) - 133 - structure of persons holding authority
high hurdles -(… hurd ulz / hur dulz )- Sports: barriers over which
competitors must jump without breaking stride in running races / see hurdle
high time - 160 - currently or past a fitting or favorable time / important time
highlighting -151 - making clear / emphasizing / showing the importance of
highlights - 70 - shows clearly makes very clear / emphasizes
hinder - (hin dur ) - 79 - delay the progress of / get in the way of / obstruct
hire -( higher )- 11,133,137,167,169,171,191 - employment ( 133, 191 ) /
work for pay / wage / pay ( 11, 137, 171 ) / employ / use ( 167, 169 )
hired -( higher’d )-158,161,167,168,170 - employed / paid for work or services
hired out - 170 - worked for pay [ outside the fellowship of A.A. ] / see hired
hit bottom - 5, 24 - reach or reached the lowest point / see bottom
hitherto - ( hith ur to ) - 74, 107 - until this time
hitter - see bush-league pinch hitter
hoard -( hord )- 43 - gather and accumulate / store up beyond one’s needs
holed up - ( whole’d ) - 144 - taken shelter in, or as if in, a hole or hideout
holocaust -( holo -or- hol uh cost )-176 - extreme destruction or loss of life /
massive slaughter / war ( Holocaust - The attempted genocide or killing of
over 6 million European Jews by Adolf Hitler’s Nazis during World War II. )
home group - 133 - a meeting or group, a member chooses as one they will
most likely attend regularly and support., often near their actual home, though
not necessarily so. Having a ‘home group’ is usually considered a fundamental
of recovery and the importance and benefits are great and many.
honest - 24,29,32,54,60,62,79,91,95,114,158 - truthful / clear / accurate / true /
real / right / open / direct / genuine / sincere / respectable / reliable / fair / just
honesty - 6,58,59,63,66,72,107,108,143,156 - being honest / truthfulness / sincerity / not to lie, steal, or deceive / fair and truthful speech and conduct
honor -( awn or )- 124 - recognition of achievement / admiration / prestige
hopped the subway - ( hop’d… ) - 151
- jumped aboard a subway and made a quick trip
horse-and-buggy stuff - 182 - an old idea or practice not currently useful
hospitable - ( hoss pit uh bul / ha spit uh bul ) - 167 - characterized by
kindness and warm, unaffected courtesy / gracious / agreeable / disposed to
treat guests with warmth and generosity / favorable to growth and development
hospital chain - 155 - a number of hospitals under the same ownership
hostile -(hoss tul / hoss tile )-105 - unfriendly / warlike / offensive / combative
hot and cold by turns - 97 - at varying intervals / “by fits and starts” / fitfully /
- in this usage turns means irregular impulses or periods of action
hotly assailed -( … uh sail’d )- 167 - intensely attacked with harsh language
house cleaning - 32, 108 see - cleaning house
hulk -( …”big hulk of a man.” … )- 152 - large, massive, bulky, or towering
hum -(… “began to hum.” … )- 148 - be active / be in a state of busy activity
humble - 73,74,121,133,135 - not exaggerating or prone to exaggerate one’s
own worth or importance / not prideful / showing submissive respect / modest
- having a low estimate of one’s importance, worthiness, or merits / patient
humble pie - 74 - humiliation / submissive behavior / humble apologies
humbled - ( hum bul’d ) - 64 - brought to think more lowly of oneself
( or themselves ) / brought to become more meek in spirit
humbler -( hum blur )-112 - more simple / less costly / modest / more humble
humbles - ( hum bulz ) - 21 - text-previous sentence: “…he has accepted his devastating weakness and all it’s consequences.” / assumes a humble attitude
humblest -( hum blust )- 173 - most humble / see humble
humbly - ( hum blee ) - 7, 70, 75, 108, 124, 125, 149 - with humility
- in a humble way, manner, or method / not showy / not claiming or demanding
special merit, distinction or consideration / showing patience and humility
humiliating - ( hue mil e ate ing) - 47, 56, 58, 85 - something that lowers one’s pride, dignity, or self-respect / degrading / embarrassing / insulting
- something that lowers self-esteem, self-worth, or effectiveness
humiliation -( hue mil e ay shun )- 21 s -(… shunz )- 72 - state of being
humiliated or disgraced / loss of or damage to one’s reputation / actions or
circumstances which are embarrassing, shaming, or degrading
humility-( hue mil uh tee )-5,6,7,13,30,31,32,33,45,48,58,59,60,62,70,71,72,
73,74,75,76,98,149,153,187,192 - being humble / lacking in vanity, pride, or
self-importance / Textual: (Pg.30 - “…down to our right size.”)/(Pg.48 - “…get perspective on ourselves….”)/(Pg.58 - “…it amounts to a clear recognition of
what and who we really are, followed by a sincere attempt to become what we
could be.”)/(Pg.72 - “…a desire to seek and do God’s will,…”)/(Pg.75 - “…a
healer of pain.”)/(Pg.76 - “…Step Seven is on humility.”)/(Pg.149 - “…”Rule
# 62.” …”Don’t take yourself too **************** seriously.”)/ (Pg.153 - …”humility was
the main key to sobriety.”)/ (Pg.186 - “…humility, expressed by anonymity, is
the greatest safeguard that Alcoholics Anonymous can ever have.”)
humorless -( hue mur luss )- 81 - lacking a sense of wit or humor / without
the ability to see, enjoy, or express what is amusing, inconsistent, or absurd
hurdles -( hur dulz / hurd ulz )-47 - obstacles / barriers / see high hurdles
hurt pride -8,59 - damage to an excessively high opinion or oneself
hypocrisy -( hi pok ruh see )- 30 - falseness / phoniness / two-facedness
professing of beliefs, feelings or virtues that are not actually held or possessed
hypothetical -( high puh thet ik ul / hype uh thet ik ul )-140 - existing only in
concept and not in reality / th***etical / presumed real though without certainty