Wisdom Of The Rooms - 2014

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May 19

Quote of the Week

"I have to change what I want to get what I want."

When I was new in the program, my sponsor suggested that I make a list of all the things I wanted and hoped I'd get from being sober. That was easy because I had a long list. I went ahead and made my list - items that would feed my pride or give me property and prestige topped the list - and then attempted to share it with him. "Just put it somewhere safe, and we'll look at it after we work the steps," he said.

As I worked my way through the program, my outside world did improve; I was able to begin accumulating some the things on my list but a funny thing happened - they didn't fix me. In fact, the more I got what I wanted, the more I realized that I didn't really want it. I had changed.

My sponsor told me that I had changed because the program worked from the inside out and that in order for me to get what I wanted I had to change what I wanted. And now I understand. Happiness, serenity, friends, security, don't come from having certain things, they come from being a certain way. The way I am as a result of the program.