If You Want What We Have

[MajestyJo]

My sponsor told me to stay in the day and ask myself what was a priority. #1 was always my sobriety. When I looked at my day, I was told that it was okay to just be, and do what came up in front of me, instead of looking at the whole picture.

What is in my face and needs to be done? Can it be put off until later? Is there something else that needs done be for I do my will. Like calling my sponsor, reading some literature, prayer and meditation. I always found a little talk with my God, seemed to make it alright.

When I complained of busy, I was reminded to look at what it was like when I didn't have busy in my life. I drank and drugged to make time disappear. The insanity of this disease, standing with my legs crossed in my living room so I won't pee my pants, so I could light a cigarette to go to the bathroom.

All I was capable of putting one foot in front of the other, that is why I went to a meeting morning and night, I had to fill my day up with spiritual things instead of spending my days looking for things outside of myself to find peace. In between I read literature and spent time with recovery friends.

When I quit cigarettes, I didn't gain weight, I lost 3 lbs. because I went to NA and collected key tags.

They say 90 meetings in 90 days, that doesn't mean to stop then, that is just time to find a sponsor and a home group, and a time to detox and gain some clarity of thought. This is a one day at a time program.