Wisdom For Today - August

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August 20

Wisdom for Today
Wrestling, struggling, and fighting with the idea that I was an alcoholic or drug addict was my nature. Even when I first started attending meetings I was fully convinced that I was done fighting. At first I spent a lot of time trying to prove that I was different. I wanted to show myself and others that I was unique. But, slowly over time I began to see more and more evidence that I too had this disease. When I was finally convinced that I indeed was addicted to alcohol and drugs I began to look for the answers to recovery. I had a lot to learn and I had a lot to unlearn. I began to open my ears to the knowledge of others in the program. I picked up one resource after another. The more I read, the more I heard, the more I asked questions, the more I began to develop a sense of hope. I found myself fighting less often. I became more accepting of the “suggestions” given to me.

Today I still find that I can drift back into that state of terminal uniqueness. I still find there are times that I feel like my story is different. Fortunately, the fellowship of the program brings me back to reality. Am I still fighting?
Meditations for the Heart
There are things that are worth fighting for. Am I fighting for the right things? God has helped me recognize that I am worth fighting for. I did not always believe that. There was a time that I felt totally worthless. When I do have to go into “battle,” I need to remember to put my helmet on. I have to carry my shield. The wisdom of the Program is my helmet and openness, willingness, and truth is my shield. I have found these things do protect me from harm when I go into battle. I no longer have to run in fear and hide. Do I pick my battles wisely? When I do go into battle, do I strap my helmet on tight? Do I remember to carry my shield?
Petitions to my Higher Power
God,

Help me this day to be open to the wisdom of others. Help me to choose my battles wisely and help me to know that I do not need to go into any battle alone. God help me to trust that you are with me each step of the way.

Amen