Today's Thought - May

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May 25

What panic makes you want to die?

~James Baldwin

The presence in our lives of love, success, growth, abundance, and recovery may disturb us. Such positive change may contradict what we once expected for ourselves.

Doubt, fear, and the urge for self-sabotage aren’t unusual when we begin experiencing profound changes for the good. It’s tempting to lapse into old thinking and old behavior patterns that, although they’re uncomfortable, are at least familiar to us.

But we needn’t surrender to self-destructive impulses. At such moments we can slow down and take deep breaths. We can acknowledge the darkness we’ve put behind us, affirming that our Higher Power does not wish us to return to it. Rather than acting on fear and doubt, we can talk with others who’ve been there and who remind us to believe in ourselves and in our Higher Power’s unconditional love for us. We can remain still for a time and absorb the sense of how far we’ve come. We can then continue moving forward on our chosen path.

Today, I needn’t let fear or doubt take charge of my thinking. I keep breathing and look toward the light.

Today's reading is from the book Glad Day: Daily Meditations for Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender People*